By Xiao Liu
Some time ago, our manager told us at a meeting, “After this monthly summary, our staff will be redeployed. Those with bad performances will be demoted while those with good performances will work at the company’s headquarters. So, come on, everybody!” Only capable and experienced people could work at the company’s headquarters. Thinking how my performance had been bad before and had not improved until I found some ways recently, and that the manager said the people with good performances would be transferred to the company’s headquarters, I told myself to try my best to improve my performance so that I might get the chance to work at headquarters.
Half a month later, the manager told me that the company had arranged for me to work at headquarters, and asked me to hand my work over to others and wait for the phone call. I would never have dreamed that I could get to company headquarters in such a short time. It made me very happy. My colleagues looked at me admiringly as well. In order to show I had the ability, I made a resolution that I must achieve a lot. Two days later, when I’d finished handing over my job, the manager suddenly sent me a message saying that I would work at the Sales Department instead because of the lack of personnel there. Seeing the message, I got very sad and lost my temper: Originally, he said that I would be transferred to the company’s headquarters to work. So why had he arranged for me to work at the Sales Department now? The business of the Sales Department was quite different from that in the company’s headquarters. In addition, there was little space for development and few opportunities for advancement. And I wouldn’t have the chance to work at the company’s headquarters in the future. And worst of all, my colleagues were told that I would work at company’s headquarters, but now I was being transferred to the Sales Department unexpectedly. What would they think of me now? The more I thought about it, the more upset I was. If I didn’t go, I was afraid that the chief would consider me disobedient; if I went, I would lose face. Was it the company chief’s or the manager’s idea to intentionally transfer me so that I couldn’t go to headquarters? I felt extremely upset and short of breath. My enthusiasm entirely disappeared. Weak and limp, I went home.
Just when I was most distressed, the thought crossed my mind that when facing anything untoward I should pray to God and seek God’s guidance. Then I came before God to pray, “O God! I feel very depressed. Originally the manager arranged for me to work at the company’s headquarters, but now he’s suddenly changed his mind. I can’t accept it. O God! I know all matters and all things are in Your hands. May You guide me to understand Your will so that I can put aside my desires and obey Your designs and arrangements.” After praying, I saw a passage of God’s words, “As soon as it involves position, face, or reputation, everyone’s heart leaps in anticipation, and you always want to stand out, to be famous, to be glorified. … Is not a person’s falling into these conditions a trap? This is the bondage of a satanically corrupted nature.” God’s words woke me up: Isn’t this the kind of person that I am? Hearing the manager say that high-performing people could work at the company’s headquarters, I’d made an effort to improve my performance in order to get promotion. When the manager told me I was going to work at the company’s headquarters, I was ecstatic, and made a resolve to achieve good results so that the managers would see my ability. However, when I was transferred to the Sales Department, I became entirely weak, just like a deflated rubber ball. It turned out that this all was due to the binds of satanic nature on me, which made me blindly pursue fame, gain and status. When I didn’t get it, I lived in pain and depression that I was not able to extricate myself from.
I saw more of God’s words, “How are these things cast off? Do you have a solution? First, you must see through them, and then you must learn to give up these things and set them aside. If you are always focusing on these things, always struggling for these things, if your heart is fully occupied and filled by these things, if you never want to put them aside and you always harbor them without putting them aside, then you are being controlled by and bound by these things. You have become a slave, and you cannot give them up. … The more you give up and set aside, the more peaceful your heart will be and the more space will open up within it, and the more your condition will improve. The more you struggle and compete, the darker will be your condition; try it if you don’t believe it. If you want to turn around this kind of condition, if you want not to be controlled by these things, then you must first set them aside and give them up.” God’s words made me realize: The pursuit of being looked up to by others and living for face and status are contrary to God’s demands and make us live more and more painfully. To get rid of suffering, and to not be controlled and bound by Satan’s corrupt nature, we have to come before God, truly rely on and look upon God, go by God’s words and set aside fame and status, and then we will attain liberation and freedom. After understanding God’s will, my anger subsided, almost without me being aware. I also found myself willing to humble myself, submit to God’s orchestration and arrangement, and so work at the Sales Department.
After arriving at the Sales Department, I immediately threw myself into all of the office business and did my job with all my heart and strength, no longer worried about what other people said. When I did not seek fame and status any more, but humbled myself and practiced according to God’s words, my heart was filled with peace and joy. After a period of time, I learned a lot at the Sales Department and gradually gained knowledge of a previously unfamiliar side of the business. At that time, I learned that whatever we face, no matter whether or not it conforms to our own notions, first we should accept and obey, pray and seek God’s guidance. Then we will see that God’s arrangement is beneficial to us, and is the most suitable and best thing for us.
Not long after, at a staff meeting, the company’s boss let us express our own opinions about the development of a new program. When I shared my opinion, the boss, seeing that I was familiar with the business and that my idea was quite novel, directly arranged for me to go to work at the company’s headquarters. At that moment, I calmed down and thought that if I had not gained experience at the Sales Department for some time I would not be competent to work at company’s headquarters, and this would be disadvantageous to both the company and me. Thinking back on this period of adjustment, I seemed to lose face and status but there was peace and sureness in my heart, and my skills had improved as well. At the same time, I also realized that face and status are just a form of temporary glory but are ultimately empty and meaningless. Only by living according to God’s words can we have a relaxed and free life; only by obeying God’s arrangements can we acquire His guidance and blessings.
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