A Day to Be Honest

A Day to Be Honest

She intended to make a killing from customers, but instead, she was cheated by them. When she practiced being honest, she was approved of and respected by others and saw God’s blessings.

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Trust in God and Win God’s Grace in Daily Life

By Xin Xin Editor’s Notes: She used to treat belief in God as spiritual sustenance, thinking believing in God is simply believing in God and has nothing to do with life. In an accident, she relied on God, and she finally felt that God is around her and leads her daily life after experiencing the wonderful work of God. Do you want to find out how she experienced the wonderful work of God? In order to live, I rented the second floor of a shopfront, starting a cosmetics shop. Although it is not that popular, my income is enough for my yearly expenses. I live a simple life year after year. In the winter of 2015, my friend came to find me with joy, and witnessed God’s kingdom gospel to me. I knew God for the first time from my friend’s words, knew we are created by God and it is God who provides us daily essentials. My heart was deeply attracted to those unheard mysteries from my friend and I accepted God’s kingdom gospel right away. At that time I just felt that the word of God is awesome, so I had gatherings and read God’s word whenever I’m free, just to have a little comfort in my heart. I never thought about how to experience God’s work in real life. I felt that life is life and believing in God is just believing in God, and that there’s no link between both of them. I have to deal with everything that is happening to me in real life by myself. Until when I encountered a very troublesome situation, and after experiencing God’s wonderful work, I genuinely felt that God is around me, ruling and leading my daily life. One time I had a customer in my shop. She went to the washroom to wash her hands after a short chit-chat. She turned on the tap but there was no water because we had water shortages often. She forgot to turn off the tap and I did not pay much attention to it either. I was not in the shop for a few days as I was out to settle other things. When I returned to the shop and opened the door, a stream of water was rushing towards me. I was dumbfounded by the room full of water: Things were floating and the tap was still running. I was so anxious that I did not even bother to take off my shoes before running to turn off the tap. In my heart I was thinking: I’m in deep trouble, what if the water was leaked to the first floor, a grain and oil store. It will definitely soak the flour and other merchandise and I do not even have enough money to pay for all the loss. In the meantime, the owner came up furiously. She reprimanded: “Look what you have done! Don’t you know the house was full of water? It has soaked all my flour and rice. How do you expect me to sell them again? I don’t even think you can compensate me with your pathetic earning.” I felt helpless, thinking since it has happened, then I have got no choice too. I am also not happy, but I cannot fight with her. Since I soaked her merchandise, I have to talk to her nicely and apologize. I said immediately: “Calm down, please. I will compensate all your loss and not play tricks with you. You can go back first. After I clean up the mess, I will make my way down to your shop to see how much I have to pay.” Meanwhile, the owners of the clothing store and grocery store came too, both heatedly asking me for compensation. I spoke to them nicely with a smile: “Alright! Alright! Please go back. After I finish cleaning up the mess, I will make my way down to every shop of yours to check and I will compensate for every loss, don’t worry.” After I sent them back, I felt very uneasy: The three owners were very aggressive like they were going to swallow me. I’m also very stressed and drained in looking after my shop, and I can only earn a little money. I’m not even sure if I have enough money to pay for all the loss. What if one of them is hard to deal with, blackmails me or makes things difficult for me deliberately? Will a fight or argument happen? I’m afraid and dare not think more, feeling panicked as I clean and tidy up the mess. As I was worried, a passage of God’s words which a sister and I had interacted appeared in my mind: “Where you will go every day, what you will do, who or what you will encounter, what you will say, what will happen to you—can any of this be predicted? People cannot foresee all these occurrences, much less control how they develop. In life, these unforeseeable events happen all the time, and they are an everyday occurrence. These daily vicissitudes and the ways they unfold, or the patterns by which they play out, are constant reminders to humanity that nothing happens at random, that these things’ ramifications, and their inevitability, cannot be shifted by human will. Every happening conveys an admonition from the Creator to mankind, and it also sends the message that human beings cannot control their own fates; at the same time every event is a rebuttal to humanity’s wild, futile ambition and desire to take its fate into its own hands” (“God Himself, the Unique III”). God’s words steadied my heart a little. I calmed down and gathered all my thoughts, recalled what the sister had told me: Since we believe in God, we must put God’s word into real life to experience it. God plans and sovereigns our daily life with good intentions, which requires me to experience with heart, so that I will see God’s wonderful work in everything that has happened to…

Tempted by Money, She Practiced to Be an Honest Person Like This … (II)

Awakened by God’s Words, I Resolved to Be an Honest Person I read God’s words: “You ought to know that God likes an honest man. God has the substance of faithfulness, and so His word can always be trusted. Furthermore, His actions are faultless and unquestionable. This is why God likes those who are absolutely honest with Him. Honesty means to give your heart to God; never to play Him false in anything; to be open with Him in all things, never hiding the truth; never to do that which deceives those above and deludes those below; and never to do that which merely ingratiates yourself with God. In short, to be honest is to refrain from impurity in your actions and words, and to deceive neither God nor man.” After reading God’s words, I was very brightened in my heart: God is faithful; He likes honest people and requires that we be frank in our behavior and conduct, not play tricks, and cheat neither God nor people. I wanted to practice to be an honest person according to God’s words, but I thought: The social competition is so fierce. If I practice to be an honest person in this trade, I won’t make too much money. If I don’t cheat customers, they will be attracted by others. Then how will I survive in this trade? And how will my whole family go on living? At the thought of this, I hesitated. … One day, the mill called us to carry scrap. Before my husband left, we loaded two bags of sand and two big stones. Then I calculated in my heart: Two bags of sand and two big stones totally weigh 150 kilograms. After they are weighed, we will be able to net six hundred yuan, and plus the price difference of selling iron, we can make over one thousand yuan. After calculating, I sweetly waited for my husband’s return. That afternoon, he came back. Seeing that his look was abnormal, my heart sank: Can it be that something happened? Then my husband said in dejection, “Today I was discovered by the mill to give short weight and was fined  two thousand yuan.” After hearing that, I had a blackout, thinking: How could this happen? Today we not only didn’t make money, but lost two thousand yuan instead…. After calming myself, I remembered God’s words: “You ought to know that God likes an honest man. … To be honest is to refrain from impurity in your actions and words, and to deceive neither God nor man.” The enlightenment of God’s words made me feel ashamed. God requires me to be a person with conscience and humanity, but I’m unwilling to practice it, feeling that being an honest person is a loss. Now as a believer in God, I don’t practice to be an honest person according to God’s requirement, but still outrage my conscience to cheat others. God examines people’s hearts, and He is reminding me with this matter I encountered today. I can no longer play tricks like this. On that evening, I saw God’s words say: “My requirements of people are no higher than the saints, it is just that I feel loathing for the evil deeds of the unrighteous and I hope that the unrighteous may be able to cast off their filthiness and escape from their current predicament so that they can be differentiated from those unrighteous ones, and live with and be holy with those who are righteous.” From God’s words, I saw: God’s requirement is not high; He just asks me to be an honest person and not to associate with those unrighteous people. But I even couldn’t reach the fundamental standard of conscience but still made money against my conscience. Thinking of this, I felt much condemned. Then I came before God to confess and repent to God, and made a resolution that I would never cheat others. Engaging in a Trick Again and Finally Finding the Root Cause Not knowing the root cause of my sinning, I still couldn’t resist the temptation when I met chances of making much money. One day, as my husband and I carried a load of scrap iron from the mill to weigh it on the weighbridge, my husband said, “How much shall we decrease for this load of scrap? What about decreasing one and a half tons? The iron price has dropped, so we should decrease more weight. Chances never come again. And since we have this chance, we should catch it.” I thought: I have made a resolution before God that I will no longer cheat people, and that I would rather make less money than give customers short weight. But at the thought that once this is the last time of carrying scrap, if I don’t make some more money this time, I won’t have such a chance. Maybe I can decrease less weight. Well, this is the last time of giving short weight, and in the future I will never do it again. Thinking it over, I still didn’t overcome the temptation, so I called the weighmaster, asking him to decrease the weight for us. After making the phone, I was a bit uneasy in my heart, but as soon as I thought I could net over three thousand yuan after decreasing this one ton’s weight, I still had a desire in my heart. After we had our scrap weighed, I calculated that this load of scrap could make several thousand yuan again. Thinking about it, I got on the truck with my husband. When we were backing our truck to turn it around, I suddenly heard a bang behind. Our truck knocked on the front of a vehicle and broke its door. At the sight, I was immediately dumbfounded. The vehicle owner said, “You’ve pranged my vehicle. You must have it repaired, or don’t want to go away. Now you and your truck must be left.” Hearing what he said,…

The Course of a Doctor’s Transformation

When my mother took me to the hospital to see a doctor in my childhood, I saw doctors and nurses in white shuttling to and fro and felt that they were like angles. I deeply admired them and thought: If only I would become an “angel in white” when I grow up! After growing up, I entered a health school with flying colors. Later I was assigned to a hospital in a city and became a doctor as I wished. On the first day I put on my white uniform, I was extremely happy. The duty of a doctor is to heal the wounded and rescue the dying. What a holy and noble work! I must be worthy of the title of “angel in white” and become a good and responsible doctor to release patients from their sufferings. My Dream Was Shattered Conforming to the trend of economic reform in China, our hospital responded actively to national leaders’ call, “Doesn’t matter if the cat is black or white, so long as it catches mice,” and launched the policy that abolished the system of lifetime employment and changed the fixed pay to merit pay. I worked in the outpatient department. The hospital demanded that the doctors in the OPD provide a certain amount of patients to the inpatient department every month and that the penalty for providing one less patient be 50 yuan. I was very angry at the rule. Must I send a patient who has a minor ailment to the inpatient department? Isn’t that harming the patient? That’s too wicked. Afterward, I still advised every patient to be hospitalized according to their condition. At the end of the month, my pay was docked 500 yuan because I didn’t fulfill that month’s quota. My colleagues’ pay envelops were bulging while mine was much flatter. They gave me a peculiar look and said, “She’s so stupid; she couldn’t even fill the quota.” “That’s right! Our department even exceeded it.” The director of the hospital sent for me and criticized, “Xiao Liu, the state appropriated only a small amount of money to our hospital and demands we take full responsibility for our own profits and losses. If we don’t get money from the patients, how can we get our salaries? If all the doctors saw patients like you, the hospital would have been closed.” Hearing this, I cried within me, “Aren’t you ‘compelling a female to engage in prostitution’?” I walked out of his office with tears in my eyes. A close colleague advised me, “Don’t be so hard-headed. Who doesn’t put money above all now? It’s said that ‘Every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost.’ You work for a month like the others, you see no fewer patients than them, and your medical skill is as good as theirs, but you get paid less money than them. Do you not eat or drink? Do you think you are a Bodhisattva who saves the whole world?” On her advice, I slowly realized the true meaning of the phrase “survival of the fittest in natural selection.” I Cheated the Patients Into Hospitalization Facing hard realities, in order to fill the quota and get more money, I began to betray my conscience and send the patients who didn’t require hospitalization to the inpatient department. I usually had a smile on my face, so the patients were unaware of the truth that I cheated them, and they were even very thankful to me. How could they know that the smiling doctors were executioners who kill without spilling blood? I remember that I once examined a sick woman and the result was the general inflammation of gynecology. In order to line my pockets, I frightened her, saying, “Your illness is fairly serious. You should be hospitalized without delay, otherwise it will bring you great trouble.” She carefully asked me what disease she had got. I told her it was XX virus infection. Immediately, she cried in fright. I regretted my words. I wanted to tell her the truth, but I thought that if I couldn’t meet the quota, not only would I be ridiculed by my colleagues and criticized by the leader, but my salary would be docked. At the thought, I was obliged to contain myself. Frightened by me, she had to be hospitalized. In the beginning when I did that way, I had pity toward the patients, but bit by bit my conscience was buried, turning more and more numb. Material Comforts Didn’t Resolve My Spiritual Suffering My head was turned by interests. While cheating the patients, I missed no chance to make money in the hospital. In our department, the doctors could directly charge surgical fees from the patients, not through the hospital. So we all scrambled to perform operations to earn more money. Some operations would put us at risk, but in order to add our income, we took the risk. In this way, every month the extra income was several times more than the salary. As my wallet became more and more bulging, I began to buy famous brand commodities and the standard of my clothing was raised rapidly. As long as the cosmetics were good in my eyes, I would not hesitate to pay by credit card. My relatives and friends looked at me with envy. However, in the quiet of the night, I would think: As I performed operations privately, what if an operation was a failure one day? And I was filled with apprehension. I racked my brains to earn money every day, having no perception of the conscience and living like a walking corpse. I did not know why man existed and why man had to die when living in the world, and was unable to see the direction of my life. I often lost sleep. The richness of material life could not dispel the fears in my heart. The Salvation of the Last Days Came Upon Me One day in May, 2007,…

How to Get On Well With New Partner

Some time ago, our department supervisor suddenly made a decision: She would transfer my partner to our branch office and find a newcomer as my partner. Faced with this sudden arrangement, my heart was in great turmoil and couldn’t calm down for a long time. I thought: What’s the character of my new partner? I am quick-tempered. Can we get along well? Will we have conflict? I began to guess without stopping and could not be quiet anyway. One day, the supervisor brought my new partner and said to me smiling: “You guys are partners from now on. She is a newcomer and is unfamiliar with the business, so you should help her more. I hope that you guys can cooperate well with each other to improve the performance early!” “I will! Reassure yourself!” After I replied to the supervisor, I told my new partner all of the primary matters that we should grasp within the scope of our work. Not only do I hope that she could be familiar with business early and improve the performance as soon as possible, but I wanted her to share the burden of my business and reduce my work stress. Afterward, I saw that she studied hard and earnestly every day and could humbly accept all the suggestions I gave to her, so I had a good impression of her. But after we spent a few days together, I found she was not only introverted and quiet but also slow-tempered. Several times when I saw her working slowly, I was anxious and wanted to lose my temper with her, but when I thought that she was a new hand and needed a period of time to learn and gather experience in work, then I was able to gradually keep my temper. After a few days, I needed to go out to talk business. While I was leaving, I sent a fax to a colleague of our branch office to ask for an urgent material on our work. Quite unexpectedly, when I came back and asked my partner about it, she said: “I didn’t know it was for you. I thought they were mistaken, so I returned it to them.” When I listened to this, I spoke with anger: “What’s wrong with you? Have you ever been invested? Don’t you know we need this material urgently?” My partner knew that she had made a mistake, so she said guiltily: “I will be careful in the future to avoid making such mistakes again.” I continued: “If you really didn’t know how to deal with it, you should have consulted me after I came back and then made the decision!” After saying this, I kept complaining in my heart: What kind of partner you are?! Such a small thing you even cannot deal with well; you are really hopeless! I have already worked in the company for a few months, don’t I know more and am I better than you in our work? You are a newcomer here and know nothing, but you still think yourself clever, decide for yourself, and don’t know to talk things over with me. Do you still see me as your partner? Then I thought of my ex-partner, who not only got along well with my character but also was good at the business, and so from whom I could learn lots of things. But this partner, is neither familiar with the business, nor has a good grasp of the information of clients, much less talk business. What can she do?! The supervisor said she could help me, while I think that not only can she not help me, but she needs my teaching and just holds me back! How could the supervisor scout such a partner for me? I could not help but complain against the supervisor in my heart. Meanwhile, I looked down upon, belittled, and cold-shouldered my partner. From then on, my partner was susceptible to my control, acting very carefully when she was doing things before me and, often watching my expressions when she was talking with me. In order to be familiar with the business and improve her ability of professional work, she came to work very early and was always the last one to leave the company. It could be seen that she worked very hard, but I didn’t know why I was always dissatisfied with her. I felt very conflicted and entangled, as well as miserable, then I came before God and prayed to Him: “O God! When I saw my partner doing things were not in line with my will, I would look down upon her and cold-shoulder her, and exposed hot blood when I talked to her. I think when I acted in this way, I made her susceptible to my control, which was not beneficial to others. But I couldn’t control my own nature, so I involuntarily thought and did in this way. God! If I depend on myself, it is very hard for me to change my own opinion of her. The only thing I can do is to come before You, to look up to You, and to rely on You.” After praying, I read some words of God: “If you regard others as less than you then you are self-righteous, self-conceited and are of benefit to no one.” After reading God’s words I was somewhat awaken: Why did I always dislike my partner? Why did I always get angry with her as long as I saw her make mistakes? Wasn’t that because I believed that I was better than her and regarded her as worse than me? Wasn’t that because I was dominated by my corrupt dispositions of being arrogant and conceited, self-important and self-righteous? Because of my satanic disposition of arrogance and self-conceit, I was incapable of knowing my own corrupt substance and lost my conscience and sense, so that what I did and what I said were all expressions of my self-conceited corrupt disposition. And I always…

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Change Your Mind and Play Well the Supporting Role

Wen Song’en had been an actress for several years. During this time, she changed from a balancing role to a supporting role, and also gained recognition from the other actors in the crew and the director. Hence she was very happy inside. A year ago, Wen Song’en took on a film and played a supporting role in it. In order that her acting could be approved by audience, she actively searched the internet for some movies, and then watched and practiced. When she read and pondered the script together with the director and the leading roles, she shared all that she had understood about how to develop the character with them so that they could learn from each other. The director and the others all said that she understood the script and could grasp the characters’ mental activities in every scene. Hearing this, Wen Song’en felt too flattered inside. In the first few scenes of this film, Wen Song’en had lines to speak, and furthermore, the director arranged for her to sit beside the lead, thus she had more screen time than other characters. However, the good times did not last for long. Afterward, several actors joined the film’s cast, among them there was a new actress who was the focus of cultivation. When Wen Song’en received the script for the sixth scene, she found that besides the lead, both the new actress and another actor had many lines to speak, but she didn’t have any. At the moment, her heart sank, with some resentment, and she thought: The new actress is a newcomer and just plays as an extra, but has lines to speak, while I, a supporting actress, have no lines. Then how can I express the views of the role I play? For all that she knew whether or not one had lines depended on the plot of the script, she still felt unbalanced in her heart, was bound by the matter of having no lines, and was unable to calm down to see the script for this scene any more. At that time, the other actors were all carefully pondering the lines, and when the director asked questions, they actively communicated their understanding. Whereas, Wen Song’en sat to the side, thinking of something else. She thought: Since I have no lines, I needn’t to spend so much time pondering the script, but just need to make an expression when the shooting begins. Subsequently, the director said that lines were to be reassigned. After hearing these words, Wen Song’en’s heart leapt in anticipation, she felt that there again was an opportunity for obtaining honor, and she thought: Since I am a supporting actress, some lines should be allotted to me. So she strained her ears to hear whether her name would be mentioned. Unexpectedly, other leads and several extras all got lines to speak except her. Wen Song’en felt quite disappointed, for having no lines meant having no opportunity to obtain honor. She whispered in her heart: Oh! Now I can’t even compare with a crowd actor; then what am I, a supporting actress, going to do in this scene? In the afternoon, the director arranged for the actors who had lines to rehearse together, and she was left out in the cold. Seeing this scene, Wen Song’en felt more distressed. Especially when she saw that the director paid special attention to the new actress, unconsciously she got jealous of her, thinking: Why is it always she who can obtain honor but never me? Her heart brimmed with resentment, and she lived in pain. Amid suffering and helplessness, Wen Song’en prayed to God, and then she thought of God’s words: “as soon as it involves position, face, or reputation, everyone’s heart leaps in anticipation, and you always want to stand out, to be famous, to be glorified. You are unwilling to yield, always wanting to contend, although contending is embarrassing. However, you are not content not to contend. When you see someone stand out, you are jealous, feel hatred, complain, and feel it is unfair. ‘Why can’t I stand out? Why is it never me? Why is it always he who gets to stand out and it’s never my turn?’ There is some resentment. … Don’t think that the difficulty for those who are the quiet type is any less than for those talkative extroverts. It is difficult for everybody. Nobody can overcome this. The internal condition of every person is the same; these things are nothing less than what Satan uses to corrupt people, what is built into humankind.” Wen Song’en knew what God had said was exactly her situation. She thought carefully: I am a supporting actress, yet during this period I had no lines and thus had few opportunities to obtain honor. Whereas, other actors was given more screen time than me. Seeing this and in particular, that the director valued the new actress, I was unhappy, complained in my heart, and I even envied the new actress, afraid of being surpassed. Now I understand that the reason why I was in such a state is because that being poisoned by Satan’s viewpoint of getting ahead and ranking higher than others, all day I focus on how to make myself stand out or obtain honor, how to earn others’ admiration, and to win the director’s appreciation. Once I couldn’t stand out or obtain honor, or failed to satisfy my vanity and desire for status, I felt uncomfortable, painful and depressed in this environment. This is completely the torment of Satan! After knowing these, Wen Song’en’s mood improved, and she was unwilling to pursue fame and status. Thereupon, she again threw herself into pondering the film script, and then shared everything she understood with others. However, when beginning shooting the sixth scene, the director concentrated all his attention on the lead and the new actress, without noticing how Wen Song’en performed, which made Wen Song’en involuntarily feel dissatisfied in her heart again. One day, a hair-stylist asked Wen…

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