I Can Get Along Well With the Surly “Big Sister”

I worked as a waitress in a restaurant. One night, a big sister working in our restaurant came back from the visit to her hometown. As it was the first time that we met, I greeted her with civility but she ignored me. From her words and actions, I found she was an aggressive woman with surly and insolent character. As for me, who didn’t understand anything overseas, couldn’t speak foreign language and was inexperienced in work, I was even the object of being bullied. At work, she often ordered me around, asking me to give customers knives and folks, sauce, drinks, and the like. Sometimes, because there were so many customers in our restaurant, I was too busy to remember what she wanted me to take. When I asked her again, she would peevishly say, “What a bad memory! You forget something so quickly!” Once, while I was washing cups, she asked me to give customers drinks. However, my hands were full of foam while some other waiters were not busy, then I casually answered her, “I’m washing cups.” Unexpectedly, after hearing my answer, she suddenly came down on me loudly, “I ask you to serve drinks. Why do you wash cups?” Before getting off work, she even degraded me in public. I thought: You degraded me before so many people on such an occasion, where could I hide my face? You are too insolent! The more I thought, the more I felt bad. However, I had no choice but silently endure the grievance in my heart. In the days that followed, she still treated me like that. I was most reluctant to get along with such a person and was also unwilling to talk to her. When she again ordered me around and asked me to take something, I would ignore her directly. Even though I helped her, I was reluctant and my complaint against her increased by the day. I thought: You are older than me and I treat you as a big sister. Yet you treat me that way. Your words and actions are too insolent! If you go on like that, I will lose my temper with you and never bear you…. When I was absorbed in these thoughts, I became more and more annoyed and suppressed as if a volcano would erupt. However, thinking of myself as a Christian, I knew it was wrong, so I came before God and prayed: “Oh God, when I saw she treated me badly, my heart felt conflicted and distressed and I even wanted to scold her in return. But God, I believe this environment is arranged by You, and I should learn to obey Your sovereignty, but I don’t know why this environment happened to me. May You lead me to understand Your intention….” After going home, I read God’s words: “You say that someone offended you, stepped on your toes, or pushed you aside, and you’re going to find a way to confront him, pit yourself against him, fight with him, and in the end you’ll rely on tactics and formidableness, on your ability to defeat him, to shame him. Is that okay? Is that putting the truth into practice? This is hot blood, and revealing a corrupt disposition. As believers in God, we can’t do that. Behaving that way hurts God. There is no bearing witness; it shames God! If non-believers do that and you also do that, then what difference is there between you? They conduct themselves that way and their methods and ways of doing things and of conducting themselves are like that. They rely on their hot blood, tactics, their corrupt disposition, artifice, ferocity, and malice in all things. If you also do things that way, then there’s nothing different about you.” God’s words really speak to my heart and exactly describe my current condition. It is true: When someone steeps me and even repels and degrades me, I will rely on my hatred and corrupt disposition to act against them. Then, am I not the same with the non-believers? Although that big sister treated me badly and aimed at me everywhere, yet that was her practice. If I lose my temper with her and even deal with her, what’s the difference between me and non-believers? In that case, not only will I lose my witness before God, but I will be also treated as a joke by Satan. Now reflecting on myself, why could I not stand her, want to lose my temper with her, and deal with her when she worked off her anger on me, or degraded and repelled me time after time? It turned out that I lived by the satanic disposition of “Tie for tat is fair play.” I thought: Since you make me lose my face and hurt myself-esteem, why do I keep standing you? Doesn’t it seem that I am always bullied by others and am a good-for-nothing without integrity and dignity? That is why I want to fight her back and to let her see that I am not easy to bully. If I truly do in that way, not merely do I not practice the truth, but instead I live by the worldly rules of living, which is hated by God. Next, I also read these God’s words: “So what should you do? How can you stand witness? What should a person who follows God do? Isn’t this something you should think about? If he’s oppressing you and he’s not fair to you, what should you do? (First come in front of God to pray and seek.) You must first come in front of God and not rely on your hot blood. You must quiet your heart. In fact, frequently the appropriate course of action is clear. You give it some thought: ‘God has said that all things and events are in His hands. All of this is within His orchestration—I believe that this is not incidental. Even though he has a…

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I No Longer Judge People by Appearances

Men, created by God, are different in appearance, height, and color. Good-looking people often show off their beauty, while unpleasant-looking people have an inferiority complex about their looks. Many people admire good-looking people but treat the unpleasant-looking with disdain. Consequently, in relations with people, we make distinctions between one person and another and can’t get along with them normally. I treated people in the same way before. But since I believed in God, my opinion has changed. I am a manicurist and often contact with customers who have different skin colors. My job is to paint colorful prints on their nails. Because of this job, I not only enjoyed a tidy income but also a colorful life. I knew that all these were the Lord’s grace. I was more grateful that I accepted the last days’ work of Almighty God, the returned Lord Jesus in January, 2017. I liked to have meetings with brothers and sisters. Especially, when hearing the experiences about how they depended on and looked up to God in difficulties they encountered and how God led them to go through difficulties, I felt I gained so much. Once in a meeting, a sister fellowshiped, “God arranges different people, events and things in our daily life to have us learn lessons. We will gradually appreciate that in our experiences.” I couldn’t understand the sister’s words at that time, and it was not until God arranged environments for me time and again that I came to know that God was right beside me and arranged people, events, and things to help me know my corruption and give me the truth, so that I could no longer conduct myself relying on corrupt disposition. One day at the beginning of March, when I was doing my job as usual, there came a customer who was dark, thin and tall. From the moment I saw her, I disliked her from the heart, for there was no part of her that attracted me. I grumbled: Her appearance is really unprepossessing. During the manicure, I just gave her one glance; all I thought was to finish doing her nails as soon as possible. One day after half month, the salon wasn’t busy. When a customer came in, I looked up to see that it was just the one who I served last time. I thought: Gosh, why does she come again? As it was my turn to serve her, I had no choice but to give her a manicure. That time, I didn’t even take a glance at her and only wanted to finish this unpleasant task quickly. Soon it came to the Eater Eve. That afternoon, we were all too busy to eat lunch. When I was doing the cleaning after finishing a manicure, I saw a customer coming and found it was her again. I bowed my head and tried to ignore her. However, it was my turn again to serve her. I braced myself to give her a manicure. I didn’t understand: Since I really don’t like this woman, why does God make me serve her time and again? Next day, I told a sister my experience in the meeting. Then she played a hymn for me. “1. If you believe in the sovereignty of God, you should believe anything that happens every day, whether good or bad, is not accidental. It’s not that someone is making things difficult for you or intentionally aiming at you, but it’s arranged by God. It’s God who steers all this. To what end, to what end does God do this? It’s not to lay you bare, or expose you. It’s not to lay you bare, or expose you. To expose you is not His final aim. To perfect and save you, to perfect and save you—this is His goal. How does He perfect and save you? He first lets you know that you have corrupt disposition, and lets you know your nature and substance and your inadequacies and deficiencies. Only when you know them and understand them in your heart can you get rid of them. This is to give you an opportunity. You should learn and know how to grasp it. Don’t be at loggerheads or wrestle with them. 2. If you always wrestle with the people, occurrences, and things around you arranged by God, trying to get away from them, feeling dissatisfied, and harboring complaints and misunderstandings, it will be very difficult for you to enter into, very difficult for you to enter into the truth. If you obey, seek, pray more, turn to your spirit and come before God, then the state within you will be unknowingly changed. During this period, the reality of the truth will be incorporated into you. As such, you will make progress and the state of your life will begin to change. When you have changed and had this reality of the truth, you will have had a stature. Having a stature means having life, having a stature means having life.” After hearing the hymn, I awakened a bit and knew that all these are under the sovereignty of God and that I couldn’t complain against God. Then, through the sister’s fellowship, I came to know that it was God’s good will to arrange this customer for me. He wanted me to know my corrupt disposition and then seek a transformation. Nowadays, God’s work has progressed forward. He no longer gives us abundant grace like He did at the Age of Grace, but exposes the corruption within us through His chastisement and judgment and leads us to change ourselves practically by His words, and finally allows us to be purified and saved. Then I recalled: When I didn’t believe in God, I was controlled by my corrupt disposition and judged people by their appearances, disdaining those who dressed simply and ignoring those whose appearances didn’t meet my taste, and preferring to contact with those who had imposing and attractive appearances. How arrogant and unreasonable I…

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God’s Love Guided Me Out of the Vortex of Money (II)

One day, I saw a reading video of the words of Almighty God. God says, “One exhausts a lifetime’s worth of energy fighting against fate, spends all of one’s time bustling about trying to feed one’s family and shuttling back and forth between wealth and status. The things that people treasure are family, money, and fame; they view these as the most valuable things in life. All people complain about their fates, yet still they push to the back of their minds the questions that it is most imperative to examine and understand: why man is alive, how man should live, what the value and meaning of life is. All of their lives, however many years that may be, they just rush about seeking fame and fortune, until their youth has fled, until they become gray and wrinkled; until they see that fame and fortune cannot stop one’s slide toward senility, that money cannot fill the emptiness of the heart; until they understand that no one is exempt from the law of birth, aging, sickness, and death, that no one can escape what fate has in store” (“God Himself, the Unique III”). Almighty God’s words have revealed the root of my suffering. So, the fact that I have been living so miserably results from my chasing after fortune and fame. Thinking back, I pursued being a rich one from a child and thought that once one has money, he will have everything. Therefore, I strove for making more money without any hesitation. However, I was pushed to the teeth of the storm of chasing after fame and gain by money finally. After having made some money, I desired much more. Afterward, when I lost 800, 000 RMB because of buying stocks, I was nearly to be dispirited. Even if I was at my lowest time, I yet tried my hardest to keep my status of being “a rich one” painfully. Now for the sake of chasing after money, I left distantly my families and came to America, and I was so tired that I had a backache. Looking back on my life journey, I realized money brought me not bliss but lots and lots of suffering. God’s words say, “when one has property, one thinks that money is one’s mainstay, that it is one’s asset in life; when people have status, they cling tightly to it and would risk their lives for its sake. Only when people are about to let go of this world do they realize that the things they spent their lives pursuing are nothing but fleeting clouds, none of which they can hold onto, none of which they can take with them, none of which can exempt them from death, none of which can provide company or consolation to a lonely soul on its way back; and least of all, none of which can give a person salvation, allow them to transcend death. Fame and fortune one gains in the material world give one temporary satisfaction, passing pleasure, a false sense of ease, and make one lose one’s way. … People spend their lives chasing after money and fame; they clutch at these straws, thinking they are their only means of support, as if by having them they could keep on living, could exempt themselves from death. But only when they are close to dying do they realize how distant these things are from them, how weak they are in the face of death, how easily they shatter, how lonely and helpless they are, with nowhere to turn. They realize that life cannot be bought with money or fame, that no matter how wealthy a person is, no matter how lofty his or her position is, all people are equally poor and inconsequential in the face of death. They realize that money cannot buy life, that fame cannot erase death, that neither money nor fame can lengthen a person’s life by a single minute, a single second” (“God Himself, the Unique III”). I felt that each word of Almighty God is the truth, which reveals the substance of money. Indeed, money can only bring people passing satisfaction, can swell people’s desires and make one lose the direction to go forward. In the end, what it brings to man is still affliction. And through the fellowships of the brothers and sisters, I came to know that Satan does bind and afflict us with these things, resulting in that we live for these empty things and ignores God’s will. Satan blinds our mind in order to make us not have time to ponder what the meaning of life is and who rules man’s fate on earth. Furthermore, Satan lures us into one after another vortex by money and fame, making us accept Satan’s manipulation and toying and live in misery without being able to extricate ourselves. Satan’s scheme is to damage and harm us to make us stay distant from God. After understanding these, I was enlightened. I realized that my previous view of pursuit was wrong, and I would choose my way of life anew—to follow God and walk the bright path of pursuing the truth and knowing God. Though I had the wish to rebel against Satan and walk the right path of life, money had rooted in my heart too deeply. Sometimes my emotions would be affected because of bad business; sometimes, my heart was addicted to earning more money even if it was time to attend a meeting. However, I knew attending meetings could bring me more truth, and if I was absent, I would lose many truths. As a result, I dropped in the dilemma between earning money and attending meetings. Therefore, I told the trouble in my heart to the sister, then she helped me with a passage of God’s words. God says, “The sadness of man is not that man seeks happy life, not that he pursues fame and fortune or struggles against his own fate through the fog, but…

God’s Love Guided Me Out of the Vortex of Money (I)

I was born into a poor Chinese peasant family, I have six brothers and sisters and I am the oldest of them. Because there are many people in my family, we were often on short commons, with patches on our clothes, and we were always looked down upon by people around us. Later on, my aunt married and lived in the city. Every time she came to my home, she always dressed herself beautifully. Seeing her high-heeled shoes, I was very envious. From then on, the opinion of “Money is first” was planted in my mind, and I considered that if a man had money, he would live a life of being an important person, which, I thought, was truly happy. I told my parents, “In future, I will also live a wealthy life just like my aunt, wearing high-heeled shoes and steel-wired glasses.” In my teens, I determined that when I grew up, I must work hard to make money. As long as I made more money, I would live a wealthy life and others would no longer look down upon us. Time flies and I grew up. A wealthy boy pursued me and let a matchmaker come to my home, proposing my marriage. The boy is good-looking and has a wealthy family, which was to my liking very much. I thought: If I can marry him, I won’t live this kind of life inferior to others. Afterward, however, my parents learned about that the boy had made a few girlfriends before, and they were afraid that he was unreliable. So they began to be against our association. My parent’s thought was quickly spread to the boy’s mother, and she took sulks and said: “We are rich enough. My son would like to make whichever girlfriend he likes. Now even if your daughter wants to make friends with my son, we won’t agree to it. Even though your daughter gives birth to golden or silver children for us, we won’t let her step into our home.” For this reason, the relationship between our two families got worse and worse, and I had no choice but to break up with the boy. After the departure, I felt sad for so long a time. Her mother’s words often echoed in my mind and I felt utterly humiliated, I thought, “Don’t think that your family has money, and so you are feeling great. If I have money someday, I will let you look at me with new eyes…” Later on, by introduction, I knew a man and married him. During a few years, my two daughters and son were born continuously. When my son was born, I was diagnosed with serious oophoritic cyst and both of them were cut off one by one. One year later, I recovered gradually. I was just inquiring about some ways to make money everywhere and wanted to devote myself to my work when my husband requested a divorce. Only then did I know that during the period of my pregnancy, my husband cheated on me and found another woman outside. The news made me astonished, and I couldn’t bear this blow and felt weak and limp all over. Seeing my younger girl toddling around and my little son babbling, my heart was broken. Those days, every day, I lived a miserable life and shed tears of bitterness. Thinking of my idle husband, whichever child I left him, I would feel worried. Finally, I determined that: I will bring up these three children. As long as I work hard to make money, the children will not live a worse life than other children! After divorce, my husband left the two thatched cottages to me, I lived in the village of my mother-in-law with my three children. Facing people’s ridicules, I felt oppressive and miserable and just wanted to get rid of this kind of life. In order not to be looked down upon by others, I began to try all means to make money. At the beginning, I worked in a workshop overtime, knitting sweaters from dawn to dark. In order to save more money, I lived a pinching and scraping life, and sometimes, I even just ate one meal a day, and was never generous to buy any clothes for myself. Just like this, I struggled for more money. Later, a boss, who often came to our workshop to pick up goods, seeing that I did work fast, asked me to work in their factory by paying me double salary. From then on, we led a better life. People beside me also praised me and I tasted the sweetness that was brought by money. Afterward, I myself opened a shop for doing business of knitting sweaters. As I knitted, I sold them. Gradually, I built up a good business. For a few years, I have also saved some money, built new houses and entered into the group of the few wealthy persons in the village. But these didn’t satisfy me. To make more money, I found a channel of wholesaling publications and began to transport them. This work was very hard and tiring and I often had to eat and sleep on the truck. After a long duration, I was too tired to hold on. But, seeing the money in my hand increasing gradually, I told myself that I must hold on. During the short two or three years, I got CNY 800,000, which made me a wealthy woman on the list in my hometown in 1997. At that time, I became a focus among people. Hearing their words of flattery, I enjoyed the sense of achievements, having forgotten myself… With the wealthy friends around me gradually increasing, seeing their high-quality cars and luxury houses, I have already abandoned my desire of wearing high-heeled shoes and steel-wired glasses. And at that time I would like to earn more money to make my son and my daughters live an enviable life. So I still tried to…

In the Storm of Selling Liquor, How Did She Manage to Not Fight With Her Colleague?

On the third day of the Lunar New Year, a festive song was played in a supermarket, greeting the comings and goings of customers with a lively scene across the supermarket. In the liquor zone, to fulfil their own performance targets and get more money and bonus, shop assistants enthusiastically promoted their products to customers and competed with each other. At that time, a man with two bottles of Huanghelou in the shopping cart stood in front of a shelf with hundred-year-old Zhijiang liquor series. He asked saleswoman Xiaojiang to give him two bottles of Tianzhiyun with each valuing 368 Yuan. When Xiaojiang was happily packing the liquor, saleswoman Xiaohuang, who sold Huanghelou, came and indiscriminately criticised that Xiaojiang sold to her customer without professional ethics. Facing Xiaohuang’s vexatious behavior, Xiaojiang got very angry and wanted to argue with her. However, thinking that it was working time, she resisted the anger inside and explained to Xiaohuang: “I didn’t try to sell to your customer. It is the customer that asked me to pack for him. He is still here and you can ask him.” The customer also quickly stated that he wanted to buy this brand. However, Xiaohuang didn’t listen to their explanation and kept saying unpleasant words to Xiaojiang. Thus, some customers started to discuss: “She is so mean! They are colleagues and see each other every day. What’s the point of doing that?” “Yeah. This is the way the world runs. A weak person is liable to be bullied and a tamed horse is often ridden.” “That’s right. This girl is too guileless.” Xiaojiang was already very angry. When she heard the words from the onlookers, the anger inside rose up quickly. She thought: Xiaohuang is bullying me. If I don’t pay her back, she will think I am liable to be bullied. The customers will also think I am a coward. Who is afraid of it? She is wrong today and I will teach her a lesson in case she will push her luck next time. As the saying goes, “We will not attack unless we are attacked; if we are attacked, we will certainly counterattack.” I must stand up for myself. Who is not able to criticize others? However, when the words came to her tongue, Xiaojiang realised that she was a believer. God said: “If the speech and conduct of a believer is always as casual and unrestrained as an unbeliever, then this believer is even more evil than the unbeliever…” Since I am a believer, I should have saintly decency, practise God’s words, and behave according to God’s words. I shouldn’t behave as an unbeliever. Thinking of this, Xiaojiang was no longer so angry. She picked up her cup and left the trouble spots for water. In the quiet hot water room, Xiaojiang kept praying to God: “Oh God! I believe there is Your good will in the thing that happened to me today. I should not pay her back like an unbeliever. However, my stature is too small and I am upset about that. God, may you protect my heart.” After praying, Xiaojiang calmed down a lot. She recalled a paragraph of God’s words: “Cruel, brutal mankind! The conniving and intrigue, the jostling with each other, the scramble for reputation and fortune, the mutual slaughter—when will it ever end? … How many do not act for the sake of their own interests? How many do not oppress and discriminate against others for the sake of maintaining their own status?” Pondering God’s words, Xiaojiang understood that we were still living under the domain of Satan and Satan’s views of “Every man for himself and the devil takes the hindmost” and “We will not attack unless we are attacked; if we are attacked, we will certainly counterattack” had already been deeply rooted in our hearts, which made us more and more selfish, greedy and vicious. It gets harder and harder to deal with each other. For tiny gains, people slander and fight with each other without any human likeness. Thinking of these, Xiaojiang understood it is the Satanic venom like “Every man for himself and the devil takes the hindmost” and “We will not attack unless we are attacked; if we are attacked, we will certainly counterattack” that motivated Xiaohuang to let off her dissatisfaction of losing the business by cursing her, and made her want to fight back in anger for saving face. Once our personal interests get damaged, our Satanic nature will be exposed. We can’t help but compete and fight with each other. No one wants to lose anything. Xiaojiang thought that she had read lots of God’s words and experienced much God’s work. However, facing this kind of environment today, she still wanted to follow the corrupt disposition rather than learning lessons. She didn’t have any human likeness. Thinking of this, Xiaojiang understood God’s good intentions. God created such kind of environment to let her realise that only by practicing the truth can her corrupt disposition be cleansed and can she become a man with conscience and reason. Understanding God’s intentions, Xiaojiang felt much relief. Coming back from the hot water room, Xiaojiang saw Xiaohuang complaining to the manager, which triggered her anger again. She thought: You scolded me angrily and I didn’t argue with you. Now you push your luck and attack first despite being in the wrong. You just go too far in bullying others. I’m a tiger but not roaring, so you think I’m a sick cat. Since you have already told the manager, I can just take the opportunity to explain what happened and ask the manager to uphold justice for me. If I don’t go to explain, the manager may fire me after just listening to Xiaohuang’s words. Isn’t it unfair to me? Thinking of these, Xiaojiang walked straight to the manager. At that moment, suddenly there were other things for Xiaojiang to deal with. She didn’t know what to do so she prayed to…

Tempted by Money, She Practiced to Be an Honest Person Like This … (I)

Honestly Making Money Based on Conscience My husband and I set up a recycling station. At the outset of doing business, we treated every customer with sincerity. Especially when the old came to sell scrap, we would give them special favor. Customers were so trustful of us that they all sold scrap to us. Over time, our business began to become brisk. We could make one or two hundred yuan each day. Figuring it out in this way, we could make five thousand yuan a month. I was very content with that. One day, a business friend came to visit us. When he was drinking with my husband, he sighed and said, “Alas! My business is not doing as well this year as the former years. In the past two years, much money could be easily made. At that time, I could make from seven to ten hundred yuan a day at most. But I can’t do it now: Every day I can only make four or five hundred yuan; even when I make the most, it just reaches six or seven hundred yuan.” Upon hearing that, my husband said in surprise, “We can only make one or two hundred yuan a day. But you can make so much, how come you still feel it’s not enough? What’s your acquisition price?” The friend said, “Now there are many recycling stations and the competition is fierce. I lost some regular customers. But now I offer the highest price to collect their scrap, making some of them come back again.” My husband said helplessly, “Offering a high price means you can’t make money.” The friend said with a proud look, “Since I offer a high price, I certainly give them short weight, or else how can I make money? Do you not use some tricks on your platform balance?” Hearing his words, my husband and I felt a little puzzled. The friend seriously said to my husband and me, “You’re just too honest. Do you think people in this trade are all honest? These years, if people don’t cheat or make extra money in their business, who is willing to do it?” I said, “Doesn’t cheating others mean we lose our conscience?” He said indifferently, “Conscience? How much is the conscience worth? If you don’t cheat, you can’t make much money. Now business people are all doing like this.” Subsequently, the friend told us a trick of how to cheat customers. That was to remove the original weigh-beam from the platform balance, to buy a false weigh-beam that could give short weight to replace the original one, and then to decrease the weight by forty percent (fifty kilograms of scrap scales only thirty kilograms). Then, he personally taught us to practice it on our platform balance. He taught and said, “After the original weigh-beam is replaced with a false one, pull the beam out when you want to give short weight, and push it in when you don’t do it in ordinary days. In this way, it’s not easy to be found by others.” At his words, I immediately understood: It turned out that they made money by cheating customers. Little wonder that people of the same trade around can make four or five hundred yuan a day while we can only make one or two hundred yuan. But then I thought: If I give the customers forty percent short weight, then don’t they suffer too much loss? Doesn’t that mean gaining profit at others’ expense? I can’t cheat others like that, or else I’ll have an uneasy conscience. Though the friend taught us a “good method” of making money, I still did business honestly. A Dull Business Swayed My Heart After another period of time, people selling scrap to us complained that our price was low, so they all went to where a high price was given. Seeing customers left one after another, I felt very desolated and thought: What have you done? The recycling stations offering a high price are all cheating you. How come you still go there? Gradually, people who sold scrap to us became ever fewer. We could only collect several orders of scrap a day and make little money. Seeing our business became bad, I was very worried, thinking: If this goes on, not to mention buying a house and a car, it will be even difficult for us to pay our rent and living expense. Then how shall we live on? … Just when I was worrying about our livelihood, I suddenly thought of the friend’s words, “These years, if you don’t cheat, you can’t make money and can’t survive….” Right. If I still follow my conscience to honestly make money, I’m afraid that I can’t stand firm in this society. It seems that I have to play some tricks like them—offering a high price to attract my lost customers. Otherwise, our business will close down. But at the idea of that, I felt a bit uneasy in my heart: No. That’s too conscienceless. But I thought again: Now this society is too realistic. If I don’t play some tricks but still do business honestly, when can I buy a house and a car? And how can I gain status in this society? Like this, I thought this matter over and over in my heart. Finally, I had no choice but to make up my mind: As long as I can make money, I don’t care about conscience. How much is the conscience worth? As the saying goes, “Money makes the mare go” and “Money is not everything, but without it, you can do nothing.” Others can play tricks and so can I. It’s not merely us doing so. Going With the Tide and Cheating On the Platform Balance Later, we bought a false weigh-beam and set it on our platform balance, and started to learn giving short weight. Once, a customer carried a load of scrap to us. I thought: This customer comes…

The Gains Brought by One Document

The Gains Brought by One Document

During these days, our company had recruited some new employees. In order for our work to be completed better so as to get good achievements, the supervisor arranged for one of them to be my new partner. But to be honest, I didn’t want to change my partner at all. I considered: Presently, people are all self-righteous. What is my new partner like? Can we get along with each other? Suppose we were to have different opinions on things, would we be in conflict with each other? … These thoughts came out repeatedly in my mind so that I was very depressed. The next day, after finishing a document, I gave it to my new partner to check and modify it. But several days passed, she still made no reply to me. When I thought that my former partner always would reply to me the second day at the latest and she never delayed the progress of my work, I had some preconceptions about my new partner in my heart: How many days have passed! Yet I haven’t heard your reply. What do you mean? Don’t you think that my document is good? If so, you ought to tell me and I could modify it. But though I was very anxious, I didn’t want to actively ask her about my document. So I had to continue waiting for her reply “patiently”. Three days later, she gave me the answer at length. However, she not only pointed out many insufficiencies in my document, but advised me to rewrite it. Hearing these suggestions, I had a distrust of her in my heart: Do you actually understand the professional knowledge? Are you not mistaken? If you were, wouldn’t it be a pity for my document? Then, without communication with my partner, I directly abandoned my document in a fit of pique. Afterward, the supervisor handed over some works to me. Due to last unpleasant experience, this time, after I finished these documents, I directly gave them to other colleagues to check instead of my partner. Because in my heart I always had some misgivings: It is not long since my partner came to the company, and she is unfamiliar with the majority of the business. What a pity it would be if she rejected my document when she doesn’t understand the professional work! What’s more, I had been taking it to heart since she rejected my document last time. So I always wanted to save my face before her and not to be looked down on by her. However, subsequently, the colleagues who were familiar with the business became quite busy and had no more time to help me check the documents. Besides, one colleague emphasized again and again: Regardless of who your partner is, you should ask her to check it for you. Hearing the words, I felt depressed at once. After I came back home in the evening, thinking of the relationship between me and my partner, I could do nothing but pray to God in my heart once and again: “O God, I have a poor opinion of my partner, and I don’t want to get close to her at all. As a Christian, I know what I live out is not in accordance with Your will. But when facing my partner, I really can’t practice Your words. O God, what should I do?” After praying, I opened the book of God’s words and saw these words, “Again I say to you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven. For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the middle of them” (Matthew 18:19-20). “They don’t have any harmonious partnership. Why don’t they have any? (They are arrogant and self-righteous and are unwilling to relinquish themselves.) Being unwilling to relinquish themselves, being arrogant and self-righteous—these are all corrupt dispositions” (“To Attain the Truth, You Must Learn From the People, Matters, and Things Around You”). At this point I had an awakening. I realized the reason why I couldn’t get along well with my partner was because I lived within a state of arrogance and self-righteousness. When I saw she was a newcomer, I was afraid that she was unfamiliar with the business and couldn’t make a correct assessment of my documents so that she would reject my document by mistake. Therefore, I couldn’t treat her fairly and justly. Furthermore, I thought that as a new member, she should be humble and not reject my document as she pleased. Then I thought of a passage of God’s word: “Will you become even more arrogant and conceited, or will you stay as you are? (We’ll become even more arrogant and conceited.) Why is that? (We’ll think we have capital.) You’ll think you have seniority, yes? And what is the level of this seniority based on? Is it based on how many years you’ve been performing this duty? In addition, is it based on how much experience you’ve accrued from performing this duty? Slowly but surely, will you start judging people according to their seniority? (Yes.) And why will you take this path? Say, for example, there’s someone called Sister Zhang: She’s believed for many years, she’s a veteran—the first one who performed this duty. So she’s most qualified to speak. Brother Li came last; he might have a little caliber, but he doesn’t have enough experience to perform this duty, nor has he been a believer for very long. He is the least qualified to talk” (“Only If You Live Before God at All Times Can You Walk the Path of Salvation”). Although this passage is spoken by God to teach us Christians to perform our duty with one heart and mind, in our daily work, shouldn’t we do the same? Was not the reason why I could not accept my new…

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The Happy Experience of Putting the Truth Into Practice

In the Autumn of 2014. I was forced to leave home to escape from the Chinese Communist Party Government’s fierce persecution of Christians. My uncle recommended me a temporary job in a restaurant. I worked as a desk clerk. I thought that as a Christian, I should work hard regardless of how long I stayed here so that I would live up to my own conscience and not shame the name of God. So, I dutifully worked in the restaurant as if I worked in my home. The boss thought I was trustworthy, and treated me very well. However, there was an aunt who worked in the kitchen and often found fault with me in nothing but some trifles. It troubled me a lot. At first, I could be patient with her. This was because from God’s words I knew that we had been deeply corrupted by Satan, and therefore it was difficult to avoid infighting when we interacted with each other. She didn’t believe in God, so it was normal for her to envy me when she found the boss treated me well. But later, she kept on finding faults with me, and sometimes she even ridiculed me, saying that I earned a living not through my ability but through my connection. Faced with this situation, I was friendly with her superficially, but in my heart, I really hated her and was not willing to talk to her. Sometimes when she asked me something, I would pretend not to hear her and intentionally talked with other colleagues. Sometimes when I had enough of it, I really wanted to complain to the boss about her mockery. One day, when I really was going to do that, I suddenly remembered God’s words, which says: “Be more patient and tolerant, practice conceding more, be generous and open with people, and learn from the ‘spirit of the prime minister.’ When you have thoughts that are not good, practice forsaking the flesh more. … When your hand of sin reaches out, pull it back and don’t let it extend so far. It’s useless! What you get from God is nothing but curses; be careful. Let your heart take pity on others and don’t always strike out with weapons in hand” (“Focus More on Reality”). God’s words tell us how to be a created being. We should be generous and open with people and be tolerant, which is the very least that one with conscience and reason should do. But taking a look at myself, when the aunt attacked me, I only wanted to take an eye for an eye by telling on her handles to the boss, and even could hardly wait to see the boss fire her, which would erase the hatred in my heart. Wasn’t I pursuing Satan’s principle that “Those who submit will prosper; those who resist shall perish”? It was the judgment of God’s words that made me realize that my thoughts came out of a corrupt disposition, which was at odds with God’s will. I can’t be obstinate, doing whatever I want. I should live by God’s words and live out normal humanity. I don’t want to be laughed at by those who don’t believe in God, and I mustn’t shame the name of God. Therefore, I dropped the idea of telling on her to the boss. But in my heart, I really didn’t want to face her because I was fed up with her contemptuous face. Every time I was annoyed with her, I would miss the brothers and sisters in the church very much. I didn’t need to be wary of them when I stayed with them. Even though I revealed my corrupt disposition, they would tolerate and be patient with me. And no one would ridicule or exclude me. When I thought about this, I didn’t want to stay here any longer. But if I returned home now, I would be in the danger of being arrested by the CCP Government. Therefore, I prayed in my heart: “O God, if it is Your will that I stay here, I’m willing to be obedient and experience Your work. However, my stature is too small. Please give me the courage to face the hard situation and difficulty, so that when I meet the persons and things that I don’t like, I can quiet before You and figure out Your will in Your words and live by Your words.” One day, when I was cleaning the wall, I found a stain on a piece of tile. The stain had been there since the restaurant was decorated. It could not be removed no matter how hard I tried. The aunt then saw it and murmured: “How can’t she do such a work. It’s so bad.” Hearing her words, I felt so aggrieved and thought: The hygiene has been improved a lot since I came here. The boss has praised me for several times. You are an employee, too. For what are you always reproving me? No, I will not tolerate you, otherwise, you will think I am easily bullied. At worst, I will quit my job after quarrelling with you. It’s no big deal! Thinking of this, I got ready to argue with her. But when I was about to say something, I suddenly remembered God’s words, which say: “You should know that everything that happens to you is a great trial and the time when God needs you to bear testimony. Externally, they might not seem like a big deal, but when these things happen they show whether or not you love God. If you do, you will be able to stand firm in your testimony to Him, and if you have not put the love of Him into practice, this shows you are not someone who puts the truth into practice, that you are without the truth, and without life, that you are chaff! Everything that happens to people is when God needs them to stand firm…

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