I grew up in an idolatrous family and had never heard God’s gospel. When I was sixteen years old, my auntie preached the’ gospel to me. When I first started attending meetings, I felt very great—there was peace and joy in my heart, so I had great energy for seeking. However, after several years, in the meetings, I gradually felt that the more I listened to the preaching, the more I felt boring. And when I came to meetings, I just dozed off. I couldn’t receive supply within the spirit, nor could I feel the work of the Holy Spirit. In order to have more understanding of the Bible and more knowledge of the Lord, I took Bible classes in our church, such as the disciple’s course, etc. However, I still didn’t know about the contents of the Bible.
On June 10, 2017, I got acquainted with Sister Xia on FB. When we talked about the experiences of believing in the Lord, I felt when she encountered things, she was good at seeking God’s will and that she had some understanding of God, so I liked to communicate with her very much. Later, she said that she knew Sister Luo, a sister in the Lord, who fellowshiped about the truth very clearly and then invited me to join their meetings. I happily agreed to it.
During a meeting, Sister Luo spoke of the sign of the last days. She said, “Now is already the time when the Lord will arrive, but our sinful nature hasn’t been cast away and we are still living in a state of sinning and confessing, becoming bound by our sins. The Bible says, “Holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord” (Hebrews 12:14). So, sinners like us will be unable to enter the heavenly kingdom and God must perform another stage of work of purification. Only then can we escape the bondage of sin, achieve cleanness and enter the heavenly kingdom.” Hearing her fellowship, I felt it was unbelievable: How can her acceptance be so wonderful and she understand so much? Previously, I had never heard these contents in our church, so the more I heard, the more I was spirited and I also thirsted for the contents she fellowshiped very much. Several days later, she fellowshiped with me about the purpose of God’s three stages of work in His management plan, the truth of and the incarnation and so on. Besides, she told me, “The Lord Jesus has returned and He is Almighty God incarnate.” I was unexpectedly hearing that the Lord Jesus had returned, and I couldn’t completely dare to believe it. However, I recalled that through this period of reading Almighty God’s words, I had gained much understanding of God’s work and His will to save us. I thought: If it isn’t the work of God Himself, then who else can explain the mysteries of the Bible so thoroughly and with so much specificity? From the Age of Law to the Age of Grace, only God Himself knew the mysteries of He managing mankind and only He could reveal these mysteries. I had confirmed from within my heart that Almighty God’s words were indeed God’s words, so I accepted Almighty God’s work of the last days.
One day, my chest suddenly began to hurt. It hurt so seriously that I couldn’t breathe hard and even when I bent to pick up things I felt my heart was pressed so hard that I couldn’t breathe. I felt very strange: No matter how badly I coughed before, my chest hadn’t hurt so seriously. Today, how could it hurt so badly? Have I suffered from any illness? I started to feel very uneasy. Later, as my chest hurt so badly, I told Sister Luo this matter. Upon hearing this, she read a passage ofto me, “God works, God cares for a person, looks upon a person, and Satan dogs His every step. Whoever God favors, Satan also watches, trailing along behind. If God wants this person, Satan would do everything in its power to obstruct God, using various evil ways to tempt, harass and wreck the work God does in order to achieve its hidden objective. What is its objective? It does not want God to have anyone; it wants all those that God wants, to occupy them, control them, to take charge of them so they worship it, so they commit evil acts alongside it. Is this not Satan’s sinister motive?” (“God Himself, the Unique IV”). Then she fellowshiped with me, “Previously, we didn’t follow God’s actual work and it meant we were living under Satan’s domain all the time and being controlled and ruled over by it. Today, under the guidance of God, we have followed the footsteps of the Lamb and accepted the true way, so we no longer belong to Satan. Satan is not willing that we are gained by God, so it will use all kinds of methods to disturb us, including letting us suffer ailments. Its purpose is to obstruct us from accepting the true way so that we will lose and once more return under its domain. So we should more and rely on God to see through Satan’s crafty schemes.” Hearing her fellowship, I came to understand that my chest hurting was in fact Satan’s disturbance. Satan was afraid that I would be gained by God and didn’t want me to gain much understanding of God, so it tortured my body behind my back. After knowing that it was Satan’s trickery, I prayed to God, “O God, I know my illness is Satan’s disturbance. I’ll entrust myself to You and no longer be worried about or afraid of my body. I’ll continue to attend meetings.” Right after that, I lay on the sofa with two pillows behind my back to relieve my pain and then continued with the meeting.
Several days later, I was gathering with Sister Luo when suddenly a friend of mine called me and asked me to help her with her grandson (the little baby was just over a month old). As I was not feeling well at that time—my chest was still hurting, I refused. However, she absolutely insisted on asking me to help her babysit her grandson for a day. For the sake of saving face, I had no choice but to agree. But during the meeting, the baby kept crying, which made me have no way to still my mind to listen to Sister Luo’s fellowship at all. At that time, Sister Luo sent me a passage of God’s word: “In every step of work that God does within people, externally it appears to be interactions between people, as if born of human arrangements, or from human interference. But behind the scenes, every step of work, and everything that happens, is a wager made by Satan before God, and requires people to stand firm in their testimony to God. Take when Job was tried, for example: Behind the scenes, Satan was making a bet with God, and what happened to Job was the deeds of men, and the interference of men. Behind every step that God does in you is Satan’s wager with God—behind it all is a battle” (“Only Loving God Is Truly Believing in God”). After reading these words, I realized that it was Satan that disturbed me again. But I thought it was just one day and the next day my friend would take her grandson back home. Who could know that after a day, she asked me to help with her grandson for two more days and later she even asked me to do that until Sunday. For the sake of saving face, I compromised repeatedly and at last she said that anyway, I had nothing to do at home and that she would hire me to take care of her grandson. Hearing what she said, I was kind of shaky, thinking: I’m always at home and take care of my children instead of going to work to make money. Now I can both care for my family and earn money, which can just relieve some of my family burden. At that time, my son also persuaded me to grant her request and said he would help me take care of the baby so that I could attend meetings. When I was about to agree it, she told me that every week I could only take a day off and had to look after the child in the remainder and even at night she wouldn’t carry the baby back home. Not until at that time did I realize that if I continued to compromise, I would even have no time to read God’s word for spiritual devotion in the morning. Moreover, I thought: I had just accepted God’s work and had to often read God’s words to equip myself with truth; otherwise, if I missed the chance to pursue the truth, I would lose God’s. Hence, I refused her.
Afterward, I came to realize: This matter appeared as if from human interference, but behind the scenes, it was Satan’s trickery. That Satan used all kinds of methods to obstruct me from attending meetings and even used money to tempt me was just wanting me to leave God. From these I saw that Satan was so cunning. Thanks be to God! Without God’s protection, I would have fallen for Satan’s tricks. Later, Sister Luo said, “Satan won’t let us off easily and come before God smoothly, so we should pray to God more and calmly seek the truth in His presence when encountering matters. Only in this way can we see through Satan’s tricks and stand witness to God.”
By Shifang, Malaysia
To Be Continued …