When I Was Weak in Spirit, God’s Words Comforted Me
Leaving the sister’s house, I stood at the roadside, hesitating where to go and what to do for hours. Returning home after running off my feet all evening, I was weary in body and mind and became weak in spirit: How is it so difficult to walk the path of believing in God? Because of the frantic hindrance of the sectarian leaders and arrests by the CCP government, we have no suitable place to gather, and even with any carelessness, we may be in the danger of being imprisoned and face a life-or-death choice in cruel torture…. The more I thought, the more afraid I was. Then my flesh was also very weak, but I was unwilling to give up my belief in Almighty God. Had my faith in the Lord these many years not been to welcome the Lord’s return? However, having just believed in Almighty God, I faced such difficulty, wouldn’t I suffer even more in the future? In a dilemma, I buried my head in my hands and wept, keeping crying: “Oh, God! God! Please help me! Help me! …” In pain and negativity, I thought of a song of God’s words “Bitterness Is One of God’s Blessings”: “Do not be discouraged, do not be weak, God will reveal to you, God will reveal to you. The road to the kingdom is not that smooth, nothing is that simple! You want blessings to come easy.” God’s words brought me a bit of comfort and confidence. I came to realize: The path of believing in God and gaining salvation is not smooth. We can’t gain the blessings of the kingdom easily. Soon afterward, I opened up God’s words and read: “Perhaps you all remember these words: ‘For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, works for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory.’ In the past, you have all heard this saying, yet none understood the true meaning of the words. Today, you know well the real significance they hold. These words are what God will accomplish in the last days. And they will be accomplished upon those cruelly afflicted by the great red dragon in the land where it lies. The great red dragon persecutes God and is the enemy of God, so in this land, those who believe in God are subjected to humiliation and persecution. That is why these words will become reality in you group of people. As the work is carried out in a land that opposes God, all of His work is met with inordinate hindrance, and many of His words cannot be accomplished in good time; hence, people are refined because of the words of God. This too is an element of suffering. It is greatly arduous for God to carry out His work in the land of the great red dragon, but it is through such difficulty that God does a stage of His work to make manifest His wisdom and wondrous deeds. God takes this opportunity to make this group of people complete.”
From God’s words, I understood: Because the atheistic CCP government persecutes God, we, believing in God today in China, have to suffer and be subjected to persecution. Through the persecution of the CCP, God makes a group of overcomers and allows us to see His almightiness and wisdom in persecution and tribulations. After understanding God’s will, I felt that depressed no more. Thinking brothers and sisters now had a great deal of faith and a heart of yearning, and wanted to listen to Almighty God’s words more, I must not be negative and weak due to the temporary difficulty. I must seize the time to be equipped with the truth and cooperate with the witnesses in communicating to help brothers and sisters quickly establish a firm foundation on the true way, thereby giving Satan no chance to exploit.
God’s Words Enlightened Me to See Through Satan’s Tricks
Without a suitable home for meeting, I felt anxious. Thus I was up early to ponder this thing the next morning. Through praying to God, I suddenly thought it was said in the Bible: “Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the middle of wolves: be you therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves” (Matthew 10:16). I carefully pondered the meaning of the words and understood immediately God’s will. Didn’t God ask us to use wisdom to battle with Satan? I came to a sudden realization and found a way out, thinking of a remote host family of our church. Then I happily rushed to the host family and arranged for several brothers and sisters to stand guard outside, with our meeting time especially fixed from 10:10 am. to 12:30 pm. During the time period, the sectarian leaders went to gather in other place. When their meeting ended, we had already left. In this way they came a few times but did not find us. After that, they did not come to this host family any longer.
However, Satan did not resign itself to failure. When it realized that taking a hard line did not work, it switched to a soft one. Afterward, Elder Tu had two co-workers—Sister Zhou and Sister Huang—come to me twice, wanting me to go back to my former denomination, but all I did was refuse. One month later, Elder Tu personally came to my home again. Seeing him, I got extremely angry: “What are you doing here? You become a Judas and betray brothers and sisters, are you worthy to be an elder?” He said to me hypocritically: “Sister, in fact, you shouldn’t blame this thing on me. Other co-workers did it. I’ve blamed them. Sister, we’ve believed in the Lord together for so long, and I really can’t bear to see you take the wrong path and abandoned by the Lord. So I sent Sister Zhou and Sister Huang to persuade you, but to my surprise, you refused to turn back. So I have to set aside my pride, coming personally to urge you. Hurry up and turn back. As long as you confess your sins to the Lord and repent, we won’t hold on to your transgressions. Turning back, you can continue leading a church. In the future, we will expand the church and let you look after those new believers. …” I found out that he attempted to seduce me, but I did not know what tricks he was up to, so I kept calling to God in my heart: “Almighty God, my stature is too small. Please protect my heart, so that I can discern his schemes and not be deceived by him. May you give me faith and strength, enlighten me to see through his tricks, and grant me with the words I should speak.” Under the guidance of God, I thought of God words that brothers and sisters had communicated with me, “The church is being built and Satan is trying its utmost to demolish it. It wants to demolish My construction by any means possible…. You must be awake and waiting at every moment, and you must come before Me more. You must recognize the various plots and cunning schemes of Satan, know the spirit, know people and be able to discern all kinds of people, matters and things; … When the church enters its construction phase, a battle of the saints against Satan ensues. Satan’s various hideous features are set before you; do you stop and backslide, or do you stand up and walk onward, relying on Me? Thoroughly expose Satan’s corrupt and ugly features, spare no feelings and show no mercy! Fight Satan to the death!” “Satan is constantly devouring the knowledge that men hold of Me in their hearts, and constantly, with teeth bared and claws unsheathed, engaged in the last throes of its death struggle. Do you wish to be captured by its deceitful stratagems at this moment? Do you wish, at the moment that the last phase of My work is completed, to cut off your own life?”
I understood from the words of God that Satan constantly obstructs people from turning to God. It tries all kinds of means and tricks to wage its final struggle, attempting in vain to interrupt, disturb, and demolish God’s work. When Elder Tu saw I did not give in no matter what hard tricks they used, he tried to use status to entice me into giving up following Almighty God. Therefore, I should be quiet before God, and clear the eyes of my spirit so I could see through his tricks and not be misled by his sweet talk. I should bear witness in the critical final moment. At this time I felt at peace, and said calmly: “If you are really for my good, don’t come to disturb me again. Because now I’ve heard God’s voice, kept pace with His new work and accepted His salvation. I don’t take the wrong path. Through investigating the work of Almighty God and reading His words, I know the management plan of God saving man is carried out in three stages: the Age of Law, the Age of Grace, and the Age of Kingdom. They are all the work of one Spirit and each stage of work is more improved than the previous one. Thewe believed in before carried out the work of the Age of Grace; Almighty God we currently believe in does the work of the Age of Kingdom. They are the same Spirit in essence. It’s just that God’s work has made progress. We’ve followed God’s present work, how come you said our faith was wrong? Only those who still linger in the Age of Grace and don’t accept all the truth Almighty God expresses in the Age of Kingdom are the objects to be abandoned. As God’s words say: ‘If you do not seek the way of life provided by Christ of the last days, then you shall never gain the approval of Jesus, and shall never be qualified to enter the gate of the kingdom of heaven, for you are both a puppet and prisoner of history.’”
At the moment, I saw Elder Tu got grey in his face and stared at me viciously. Before I finished reciting God’s words, he left angrily without a backward glance. I looked at him from behind, thinking: Experiencing the obstruction and disturbance of the sectarian leaders, I have discernment regarding their essence. They always claim that they are looking after the flock for God, but actually they are protecting their own status and livelihoods. They are afraid they will become generals without an army after we keep pace with God’s work, so they exert their full strength to make us return to the religious church. They also misinterpret the Bible to deceive us and unit with the CCP government to arrest and persecute us, and some even exploit our families who don’t believe to block us from believing in God, etc. All they do is to make us give up following God, betray God, and resist God with them, and thereby we will be punished and destroyed by God.
In the spiritual war, although I was weak and distressed, the comfort and guidance of God’s words gave me faith, strength, and wisdom, allowing me to overcome Satan’s temptation and siege. Under God’s care and protection, I could stand with strength. Thank God for saving me! All the glory be to Almighty God!
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