My daughter had no child for ten years after she got married. The people around me all looked at me with a peculiar gaze. My husband also often nagged, “ No matter how much money I make, what use will it be? I even don’t have a grandchild to continue my family lineage.” For my vanity and face, I did all I could to seek a cure for my daughter, and took her to see doctors who had folk medicine for treating infertility, regardless of the cost. However, all my efforts were in vain. But when I was in despair, my relative preachedof God’s kingdom to us.
In February of 2013, my whole family accepted God’s work of the last days. Through living the church life with brothers and sisters, praying and reading God’s words, I understood some truth. Later, I performed my duty in the church, living much happier than before. I committed my daughter’s matter into God’s hands, hoping that God would give her a baby.
In January of 2014, my daughter got pregnant. It was an enormous and joyous thing. My husband, daughter, son-in-law and I bowed before God, offering thanks and praise, “Oh God! Our whole family thank You!” We were all immersed in incomparable joy.
Our Hope Was Dashed, and We Were Extremely Grieved
One day in mid-June of 2014, my daughter was doing the cleaning, when she suddenly felt her belly ache. We hurried to send her to hospital. Later, she was delivered of twins 16 weeks premature. However, the baby girl just lived for thirty minutes and the boy about an hour. Their death was a great blow to us. During that time, we were immersed in extreme sadness and pain. I was feeble like a shriveled eggplant and lost my appetite. With my tired body, I looked after my daughter in hospital. Unwittingly, I started to complain against God in my heart. “I know it is God’s blessing that my daughter could get pregnant. But why did He take her babies away? Since we believe in God, why do we encounter this calamity? …” The more I thought about it, the more passive and pained I became. I even didn’t want to read God’s words. I was in no mood to pray, and I didn’t want to attend meetings. Every day I was busy with worldly things and my heart strayed further and further from God. However, the more I was like this, the more distressed I became, and I felt as if I had lost something.
God’s Words Led the Way and Enlightened My Heart
Afterward, my sisters came to help and support me after knowing my situation. They fellowshiped with me, “Sister, what happened to you is Satan’s temptation. We should see clearly that this is a spiritual battle. Let’s read God’s words and then we will understand.”
God’s words say: “In every step of work that God does within people, externally it appears to be interactions between people, as if born of human arrangements, or from human interference. But behind the scenes, every step of work, and everything that happens, is a wager made by Satan before God, and requires people to stand firm in their testimony to God. Take when Job was tried, for example: Behind the scenes, Satan was making a bet with God, and what happened to Job was the deeds of men, and the interference of men. Behind every step that God does in you is Satan’s wager with God—behind it all is a battle.” Then a sister fellowshiped to me, “We all live under Satan’s domain, deeply corrupted by it. Now, God has again become flesh to express the truth to save us so that we may break free from the affliction of Satan and live in the light. However, Satan is unwilling to be resigned to defeat. It fears that we accept God’s work in the last days and obtain. So, it does its utmost to fight against God for us, using some disasters to cause us to be passive and weak and develop doubts toward God and thus to wreck our ; its purpose is for us to leave God and lose the chance of salvation. Aren’t the means by which Satan harms us insidious and malicious? It knows what we fear to lose most as well as our weakness and then use them to attack us. You wanted grandchildren most, so it made you lose them to disturb your heart. In this way, it caused you to be passive and weak, deny God, and blame God; its evil goal is to make you leave God and follow it to resist God, and end up being punished by God. However, God’s wisdom is exercised based on Satan’s schemes. God allows Satan’s temptation to befall us to test our faith and to see if we truly believe in Him and follow Him. This is a spiritual battle. We should stand witness for God!”
After hearing God’s words and the sister’s fellowship, I gradually understood: What I encounter is actually a spiritual battle. Satan wants to use my daughter’s miscarriage to make me passive and weak, keep away from God, deny God and finally lose God’s salvation. At this thought, I felt Satan was too insidious. I privately made up my mind: Oh God! No matter how Satan tempts me, I must not fall for its schemes. Please save me.
Satan’s Temptation Befell Again
In April of 2016, my daughter got pregnant again. Later, she delivered a healthy and lovely boy. I offered thanks to God from my heart. However, not long after my grandson was born, he suddenly had a serious illness, and then was diagnosed with leukemia. As soon as I heard this , my tears fell out of my eyes. I felt as if my head would burst open. My whole body felt limp and weak and everything went black before my eyes. I just couldn’t accept the fact. “The doctor says that it’s uncertain whether my grandson’s disease will be cured even if we spend several hundreds of thousands of yuan on it. Will I lose a grandson again? What should I do?” Suddenly I felt as if the sky had fallen. It felt like a knife had been twisted into my heart. Even breathing was difficult. Just when I was pained and helpless, I suddenly remembered God. “God is my reliance and my support. Why don’t I rely on Him?” So, I called out to God in my heart ceaselessly, “Oh God! Now my grandson is seriously ill. I am unable to save him. I can do nothing but commit him into Your hands. Encountering the temptation, I am very weak. May You give me faith and strength so that I may obey Your sovereignty and arrangement.”
At that moment, I thought of God’s words: “The environment around us as well as the people, matters and objects, all are permitted by His throne. Do not have a complaining heart, or God will not bestow His grace upon you.” “You are able to stand on the side of God when He does battle with Satan, and you do not turn back to Satan, then you will have achieved the love of God, and you will have stood firm in your testimony.” God’s words gave me faith and strength and calmed my heart gradually. “God is almighty. My grandson’s disease is in His hands. I can’t lose faith in Him.” Recalling that last time I nearly betrayed God for falling for Satan’s schemes, I made a resolution in heart: Today, regardless of how Satan interferes, I will stand firm. I must not fall for Satan’s temptation again. I can’t complain against God. This time I must stand testimony to satisfy God.
Obeying God, I Tasted
When I was willing to commit my grandson into God’s hands, I saw God’s wondrous deeds again. At dawn the next day, I received a call from the doctor, “Your grandson’s condition has gotten much better. I’ve been a doctor for over twenty years, yet it’s my first time encountering such a recovery. What a miracle!” When hearing this, I simply couldn’t believe it. What my grandson got was leukemia, yet he got well after being hospitalized for only six days. It was really a miracle! God is too almighty and too wondrous! I couldn’t help jumping with joy. Aside from excitement, I continuously thanked and praised God. Under God’s care and protection, my grandson recovered his health completely. Now he grows up lively, lovely, and is able to say many words, which is truly God’s grace and blessing to our family.
After experiencing this spiritual battle, I have gained a great lot. It turns out that there are God’s intentions hidden in things that seem bad. I have not only reversed my incorrect perspective of believing in God only for grace, but also really seen that God’s wisdom is exercised based on Satan’s schemes despite the various schemes Satan uses to destroy and interrupt our relationship with God. Through the revelation of God’s words, I saw clearly Satan’s hideous countenance, and began to forsake it and loathe it. God’s deeds are so wondrous! Thank God! All the glory be to God!
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