A Christian Teacher’s Story- She Apologized for Her Anger Toward Her Student

A Christian Teacher’s Story: She Apologized for Her Anger Toward Her Student

By Xing Jia “Good rain knows its time right; It will fall when comes spring.” (translated by Xu Yuanchong). Unknowingly, drops of spring rain fell on the earth. It was drizzling. Soon, the whole county town was shrouded in a veil of mist and rain. At the moment, in YuCai Experimental Primary School, the students in Class 6, Grade 2 were having an art class. The teacher, Lin Lifang, was giving them classwork on the platform, “OK. So much for the lesson. Now, everybody please imagine the world under the sea and draw your sea world on the paper, OK?” “OK,” the students answered in chorus. Then they bowed their heads to imagine and construct their pictures. Ms. Lin left the platform and walked among the students. Suddenly, she perceived that someone left behind her snuck a peek at her and then bowed his/her head from time to time. So she turned around and found it was Sun Li, a famous troublemaker in the class. Her years of teaching experience said that there was something fishy about him. Pretending nothing had happened, Ms. Lin crept round behind Sun Li without disturbing him. It turned out that Sun Li was busy with a verbal-exercise book, with his left hand holding a piece of white draft paper as a cover. Ms. Lin frowned and thought: How dare he do math homework in my class? He’s challenging my dignity. At this thought, she wrested the paper from Sun Li. Unexpectedly, Sun Li held it so tightly that the paper was torn immediately. Then Sun Li raised his head, frightened. The other students turned to look at them, wondering what had happened. “What are you doing, Sun Li?” asked Ms. Lin seriously. “I’m … uh … not doing anything.” Sun Li began stuttering, his head bent down. “What’s this?” Ms. Lin quickly pulled out his verbal-exercise book. With this evidence, Sun Li had to confess, “I … Last night I … didn’t finish my homework. And the math teacher punished me with 100 verbal exercises. And I must get them done before noon.” “Ms. Lin,” several students around Sun Li interrupted, “he could have done them at break times, but he went to play beanbag instead.” “Yeah, it’s true.” Hearing their words, Ms. Lin was a little angry and said sharply, “Sun Li, is it right to do verbal exercises in art class instead of at break times?” To her surprise, Sun Li didn’t take her words seriously but made a face instead. With her dignity being challenged, Ms. Lin was deeply offended, so she took his exercise book and went back to the platform. When she looked at Sun Li again, she found that he was glaring at her hostilely like “an angry bird.” “Ring …” The bell rang for the end of the lesson. With the exercise book in her hand, Ms. Lin stared at Sun Li and said seriously, “If you want it back, come to my office.” Ms. Lin was walking in the campus. With Sun Li’s hostile expression lingering in her mind, she had an indescribable feeling. So she prayed to God in silence to seek His will, “O God! I feel a little perplexed. Just now, I stopped a student from doing his math homework in my class, but he didn’t apologize. Then my anger was aroused and I took away his book. I know I have overreacted a little and have hurt him, but if I didn’t do that, he would not take me seriously and will not listen to me in future. O God! I want to satisfy Your will in this thing, but I just don’t know how. Please enlighten me and guide me.” At night, sitting in the study room, Ms. Lin thought over and over the thing happened in the morning. Then she opened the book of God’s word and saw the following words: “Regardless of whether one becomes angry in the sight of others or behind their backs, everyone has a different intention and purpose. Perhaps they are building up their prestige, or maybe they are defending their own interests, maintaining their image or keeping face. Some exercise restraint in their anger, while others are more rash and flare up with rage whenever they wish without the least bit of restraint. In short, man’s anger derives from his corrupt disposition. No matter what its purpose, it is of the flesh and of nature; it has nothing to do with justice or injustice because nothing in man’s nature and substance corresponds to the truth.” “Once a man has status, he will often find it difficult to control his mood, and so he will enjoy seizing upon instances to express his dissatisfaction and vent his emotions; he will often flare up into rage for no apparent reason, so as to reveal his ability and let others know that his status and identity are different from those of ordinary people. Of course, corrupt people without any status will also frequently lose control. Their anger is frequently caused by damage to their individual benefits. In order to protect their own status and dignity, corrupt mankind will frequently vent their emotions and reveal their arrogant nature. Man will flare up in anger and vent his emotions in order to defend the existence of sin, and these actions are the ways with which man expresses his dissatisfaction. These actions brim with defilement; they brim with schemes and intrigues; they brim with man’s corruption and evil; more than that, they brim with man’s wild ambitions and desires” (“God Himself, the Unique II”). Recalling her behaviors in the morning in God’s words, Ms. Lin thought: Aren’t my behaviors the same as God says? The reason I became angry was that Sun Li didn’t listen to me. To maintain my “lofty” image as a teacher and keep my face and status, I took away his book, believing that by doing this I could retain my dignity and the students would…

Being a Good Teacher Letting Go of the Desire for Fame and Gain

Being a Good Teacher: Letting Go of the Desire for Fame and Gain

By Mingming In order to win first prize, she intensified the children’s training. Xia Ni is a teacher in a kindergarten. Since the day she started teaching a new nursery class, she was busy with them all the time. When the term was about to end, she couldn’t help but sigh and say: “How time does fly!” One day, the kindergarten principal announced how they were going to assess the learning achievements for the term: The teachers were asked to put their teaching content for the term in the form of games, and then to perform them for the principal. Based on the performances of the teachers and their students, the principal would give marks and decide who got the first, second and third prizes. Xia Ni thought to herself: “In the past, every time when the principal assessed learning achievements, my scores were always good. The principal and other teachers all have a good opinion of me. So this time, I must do well and win the first prize to show all of them my ability.” In order to achieve this goal, she and another fellow teacher worked out an elaborate plan. Other teachers also planned to take the chance to show their true abilities; no one wanted to fall behind. Xia Ni began to train the children according to the plan, which included performing stories, reading, singing, dancing, playing instruments, etc. Because there were many children in her class, in order to train them to be in sync while dancing, she instructed them to practice again and again. Yet no matter how many times she corrected them, some children still made wrong movements. When they practiced playing instruments, the situation was one of total disorder. They took the maracas, double bells, castanets and tambourine as toys, played them at will, and simply didn’t follow her orders. For one whole morning, her baton had no effect on the children at all. She couldn’t help but lose her temper with them; she shouted herself almost hoarse and felt exhausted, but nothing changed. She felt extremely depressed, and thought: “If they continue to behave like this, it’ll be a miracle if we’re not last, let alone win the first prize. If our class really comes in last place, how could I, a senior teacher who has taught for more than ten years, maintain my confidence in front of the principal and the new teachers? No, I couldn’t let them look down upon me.” In order to perform well before the principal, she figured out a new plan and began to intensify the children’s training. But after several days of intensive training, the children became irritable and lost interest in the rehearsals. And they didn’t listen to Xia Ni or her fellow teacher. No matter how she scolded them, they acted up as if on purpose—when she asked them to go to the left, they intentionally went to the right. No matter how she scolded them, or coaxed them with toys and snacks, it didn’t work: In less than two minutes, they would get into mischief again. She tried every means she could think of, but to no avail. As a result, she became weary in body and mind, and with the end-of-term performance drawing near and the children still unable to perform well, she also became more anxious. The sight of the several naughty children especially made her head feel like it was about to explode. She had no idea how to deal with them. Seeing Clearly the Danger of Pursuing Fame and Gain One day after work, she came home, lay on the bed, and didn’t even want to move a bit. What should she do? So, she came before God and prayed to Him, “O God! I have been so exhausted in recent days. The children don’t listen to me. Once I go into the classroom, I feel a headache starting. I don’t know what I should do. May You enlighten and lead me …” After the prayer, she contemplated her problems: Why did she become so anxious when seeing those children do badly? What drove her to be like this? At that time, she thought of God’s words: “What does Satan use to keep man penned in and controlled? (Fame and gain.) So Satan uses fame and gain to control man’s thoughts until all they can think of is fame and gain. They struggle for fame and gain, suffer hardships for fame and gain, endure humiliation for fame and gain, sacrifice everything they have for fame and gain, and they will make any judgment or decision for fame and gain. In this way, Satan binds man with invisible shackles. These shackles are borne on people, and they have not the strength nor courage to throw them off. So people trudge ever onward in great difficulty, unknowingly bearing these shackles.” The enlightenment of God’s words made her realize that the reason why she wanted to train the children well was that if they acted well and won the first prize, then she would be praised and admired by the kindergarten principal and her colleagues, and receive a bonus as well, achieving her goal of winning both fame and gain. She totally lived by the satanic laws of survival, such as “As a tree lives for its bark, a man lives for his face,” “A man leaves his name behind wherever he stays, just as a goose utters its cry wherever it flies,” and “People struggle to go upward, but water flows downward.” Therefore, no matter what she did, she wanted to be admired and praised by others. She thought that if the children didn’t perform well, she would lose face before the principal and colleagues. So she intensified the training, and didn’t give them any time for play. As a result, not only couldn’t the children bear it, but she herself felt worn out. In order to win the first prize and be thought highly of by others,…

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Christian Testimony: How to Treat a Colleague Who Always Shirks Her Duties

By Zhang Jie In a fine afternoon in early summer, the sun was high in the sky and roasting the earth. It was almost time for students to leave school. The murderous heat didn’t mean to fade away and the air was thick with heat, so that the normally active leaves on the both sides of the road lolled their heads. When Zhang Jie returned to her workplace after meeting, she saw a pile of unwashed bowls and chopsticks sitting out there, the napkins on the floor, the grease marks on the tables, and the dirty rag lying there in plain sight. Everything was at sixes and sevens. At this moment, Zhang Jie got extremely angry and her face changed at once, her delight of having a meeting with brothers and sisters thoroughly wiped away. She was very unhappy and complained inside, “This colleague is too irresponsible. You think you’re the boss’ relative, so you can usually shirk your duties or take a stroll? Every time when picking vegetables, washing vegetables, washing the bowls and other cleaning, I did more than you. This time I was just on leave for several hours, but you’ve gone away, leaving me to do these work. It’s okay for me to do more work on ordinary days, but why did you still wait for me to do these work instead of washing them yourself in my absence?” The more Zhang Jie thought, the angrier she became. She thought: Even if I do more work, my wages won’t be more than others’, nor will you appreciate it. From now on, I’ll just do my own share of work and never do more. Though Zhang Jie thought this way, yet when she saw so many dirty bowls and chopsticks, she just ate humble pie and finished washing them. Then one day, when Zhang Jie came back to the restaurant from her business, she again saw that there lay some unwashed bowls and chopsticks. Because of her delay, she immediately began to wash them. But halfway through washing, she thought inside, “Well, I went out on business, but you should do your share of work. Why do you see so many unwashed bowls and chopsticks but don’t wash them? Every time I worked more but the boss didn’t pay me more money. Today I’ll only do my own work and leave you the remaining part.” She was full of complaints inside but somewhat hesitated over whether she should do so or not. Then she thought she was a believer in God and shouldn’t calculate so much like the unbelievers but should have the likeness of a Christian. Hence, she reluctantly washed all the bowls and chopsticks, yet still had a bit of complaint toward her colleague in her heart. When Zhang Jie got home after a busy day, she ached all over, as if every bone had scattered apart. She, harassed and fatigued, lay on the sofa and couldn’t help but think of what had happened between her colleague and her those days. Then she came before God and prayed, “God! My colleague always shirks her duties and leaves me lots of work to do, so my heart was filled with complaints toward her. I also have prejudices against her and don’t want to talk to her. God, I want to tolerate and forgive her, but I can’t do that. May You lead me to understand the truth and not to live in satanic corrupt disposition.” After prayer, Zhang Jie read God’s words that say, “Man’s corrupt disposition stems from his being poisoned and trampled upon by Satan, from the egregious harm that Satan has inflicted upon his thinking, morality, insight, and sense. It is precisely because these fundamental things of man have been corrupted by Satan, and are utterly unlike how God originally created them, that man opposes God and does not understand the truth. Thus, changes in man’s disposition should begin with changes in his thinking, insight and sense that will change his knowledge of God and his knowledge of the truth.” Sermons and Fellowship on Entry Into Life also says, “Now, the interpersonal relationships of all people are not normal. This is mainly because they have been deeply corrupted by Satan. Their character is extremely low: People all seek only profit and only focus on taking advantage of others when handling things; there are their own intentions and purposes in all things. People all live for themselves and for their flesh; they have no slightest care or love for others, and even no affection or love which man should be equipped with. People intrigue against each other, guard against each other and fight both openly and in secret, being unable to get along normally; the conscience and reason people should be equipped with has completely disappeared. People aren’t of one heart and mind with others; if they don’t have a little bit of patience, they will be arch-enemies. With their hearts filled with evil and fighting, people are opposed to each other and sworn enemies of each other, without the slightest likeness of a man. Their hearts have totally been occupied by Satan, and full of Satan’s philosophies.” Zhang Jie realized that God’s words and the sermons and fellowship were saying exactly her behaviors and deeds. She thought, “In my interactions with others, I often quibbled about everything and calculated my own personal benefit; once I did more work, I would complain about it, and didn’t accept, care or understand others, so my interpersonal relationships weren’t normal. Since I worked in the gourmet kitchen with my colleague, I always did more work than she. On the outside, I didn’t openly dispute with her, but in reality I was unsatisfied with and belittled her, thinking she was too lazy. Even when I saw she didn’t work, I wanted to leave work behind. Was it not because my efforts were not rewarded that I had hatred for her? Would I make so much fuss, if…

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