I Saw God’s Protection in Suffering
“Until, one day, you will feel that the Creator is no longer a riddle, that the Creator has never been hidden from you, that the Creator has never concealed His face from you, that the Creator is not at all far from you, that the Creator is no longer the One that you constantly long for in your thoughts but that you cannot reach with your feelings, that He is really and truly standing guard to your left and right, supplying your life, and controlling your destiny. He is not on the remote horizon, nor has He secreted Himself high up in the clouds. He is right by your side, presiding over your all, He is everything that you have, and He is the only thing you have” (“Knowing God Is the Path to Fearing God and Shunning Evil”). Every time I sing the hymn of God’s words, I will think of God’s marvelous deeds in the evening several years ago, which has been imprinted on my heart and been my unforgettable memory in my life …
On March 28, 2010, I finished my work and went back home. When I was ready to cook supper, I found the gas had been used up. So I called a staff and asked him to send me a tank of gas. And after his arrival, he had a try with a lighter in order to prevent from gas leaking. Then he left after he made sure that it was safe. Later, I heard a squeak when I turned on the gas tank and prepared to cook. I realized with a start: Is the gas leaking? I took a lighter from my son and prepared to have a try again. Who knew that as soon as I just flicked the lighter at the place where the hose connected the gas tank, the fire rushed out of the hose, instantly burning around the valve. My heart was pounding with fear when I saw this. I thought: This is a gas tank, and it will explode if the fire keeps burning. If so, the whole building will be in danger. Thinking of this my heart flew up into my mouth, and I didn’t dare to think what would happen next. At that time, the fire around the gas tank was bigger and bigger, the flame rose higher. The whole kitchen was lit by the firelight. Seeing the fiercer fire, I didn’t know what to do. I suddenly thought of God’s words: “The disaster originates with Me and is of course orchestrated by Me” (“Prepare Sufficient Good Deeds for Your Destination”). At that moment I felt much more peaceful in my heart and thought: That is right. Everything is in God’s hands. Today, I meeting the gas tank burning is also controlled by God. No matter what will happen, I’m willing to submit to Your orchestration and arrangement, to commit all of this to You. May God guide me…. At the thought of this, my panic-stricken heart calmed down.
Then an idea flashed into my mind: I must quickly drag the gas tank out (my house is on the first floor), and prevent it from exploding at home, or the results will have been too terrible to contemplate. At the moment, without knowing where my courage came from, I rushed to the gas tank and pulled down the hose connecting the cooker. Then I heard “bang”, the fire was burning more fiercely and the whole gas tank was surrounded by the fire. Seeing the scene, I couldn’t care that and thought: Books of God’s words are at home. What can I do in case they are burned? If the whole building is burned, I cannot afford even if I sell all that I have. Oh no, I should pull it out quickly…. Then I made my effort to drag it out. After seeing that, my son was afraid and shouted: “Mum, doesn’t you want to live? Get out quickly. The big fire will burn you.” Seeing that the fire was bigger and bigger, in spite of my son’s advice, I made my effort to pull the gas tank out. At that moment, I felt as if I was in fire, and the heat was surrounding me. My son was scared and ran out of the house. Although I was terrified, I constantly prayed to God in my heart: “Oh God, I am frightened now. I see that fire is bigger and bigger. If the gas tank explodes, the whole building will be destroyed. And there are books of God’s words in my house. Now I’m willing to commit them to You, I don’t know whether I can drag the gas tank out or not. I’m willing to commit everything to You, to obey Your orchestration and arrangement, and to experience Your work in danger.” After praying, I exerted all my strength to pull the gas tank out, and it rolled to the road because of inertia, burning to a big fire ball, which immediately attracted many onlookers. They were frightened by the scene, and some thought it was too inconceivable and said to me: “What a lot of nerve you have! The fire is so fierce, how do you drag it out?” Afterward, a fire brigade put out the fire after half an hour. My heart was at ease.
After I calmed down, I thought back to the scene of fighting fire and what had just happened, feeling as if I was in a dream. It was unbelievable that I, just a housewife, dragged the gas tank filled with gas out when it was burning. It was hard for a man to lift the gas tank, but I did it. So if God had not given me strength, I couldn’t have pulled it out at all. What’s more, to my surprise, the gas tank burned fiercely and I was in fire, but I was not hurt except my eyebrow was burned a little. It was too incredible. All knowers said God protected me because I did good things in my past life. But I clearly knew it was God that protected me marvelously. And I offered thanks and praises to God in my heart secretly.
After the fire was put out, I was worried about the condition in my house and ran back home. I thought: The fire was so big just now, so I wondered how many things were burned. But after examining the inside and outside of my home I was surprised to find that there was nothing damaged. I couldn’t help thinking of God’s words: “Man’s heart and spirit are held in the hand of God, everything of his life is beheld in the eyes of God. Regardless of whether or not you believe this, any and all things, whether living or dead, will shift, change, renew, and disappear in accordance with God’s thoughts. Such is the way in which God presides over all things” (“God Is the Source of Man’s Life”). I even more saw that everything is protected by God, and the heavens and earth and all things shift and change in God’s hands. So I didn’t suffer injuries and my house had nothing damaged when I dragged the gas tank out, which was God’s marvelous deeds.
Several months later, a gas tank of my neighbor was also on fire. The fire suddenly shot up and glass was burned to shatters. My neighbor’s clothes were seared from top to toe and he skinned the whole body as if it scalded with the hot water. We both suffered the gas tank burning. The unbelieving neighbor suffered serious damage, and on the contrary, I gained God’s protection and aid in suffering. At that time, I thought the Bible says: “A thousand shall fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand; but it shall not come near you” (Psalms 91:7). I personally experienced: God is just by my side, and everything regardless of living or dead is in God’s hands. Even whether the burning gas tank would burn people or not, to what extent it would burn or whether it would explode, all of these were controlled by God and dominated by God’s authority. So one can turn peril into safety if he receives God’s care and protection. Just as the Old Testament recorded that the three Jewish youth were thrown into a fire furnace, and they were all well in it, but the soldiers who threw them into the fire furnace were burned to death.
Through this experience, I had some realistic understanding of God’s almightiness and sovereignty. I thought that I always felt doubtful every time I heard brothers and sisters said God is by our sides every minute and second. Yet this experience made me understand that God is not invisible or untouchable, but He is by our sides and takes care of us. He is in charge of everything and dominates everything. When I was in trouble, it was God that led me and helped me get through the difficulty. I would live in vague belief and couldn’t have a true understanding of God without this experience. But now I really tasted the words of God, “Being certain of God through experiences.” Only in the real experience can we see God’s marvelous deeds and taste God’s unique authority.