Believing in Rumors and Lies and Rejecting God’s Salvation Several Times
In the past, I saw the propaganda from TV news and public bulletin boards: The CCP government opposes and cracks down people believing in Almighty God. It also says that anyone who discovers these people should report them and that the informer will be rewarded with 500 to 2000 yuan for reporting each of them. So I thought: It’s too dangerous to believe in Almighty God. I dare not believe. Once I’m arrested for belief, what a shame it will be!
In 2012, my aunt came to preach Almighty God’s work of the last days to me. At that time, she read God’s words for me. Hearing them, I felt God’s words indeed made sense and couldn’t be found fault with. However, when I recognized that what my aunt had believed in was Almighty God, I thought: No matter how well you say, I can’t believe. What if I’m arrested by the CCP after believing in Almighty God? But for the sake of saving face, I felt embarrassed to speak plainly. So I dodged her with the excuse of going out to work. Seeing my perfunctory attitude, she had to leave in disappointment. In September, 2016, I was pregnant and stayed at home. A neighboring sister also came to preach Almighty God’s work of the last days to me. I listened to her read God’s words for me. The more I listened, the better I felt God’s words spoke. God has revealed many truths and mysteries such as how He nourishes and provides for mankind, how mankind has developed until today, and so on. I thought: These words can make people worship God with a heart of gratitude; there is nothing wrong with that. But then I thought: If I accept the way, I will be arrested by the government. Once I’m really arrested, won’t I be laughed at by others? Thinking of this, I was still full of concern, not daring to accept.
Being Saved From Illness Revealed God’s Wonderful Deeds
Just when I was seven months pregnant, one night, I suddenly had a so bad stomachache that I couldn’t even straighten my waist. The next day, I went to the hospital for an ultrasound check. The doctor said I might get appendicitis and need an operation urgently, and that I was in danger of miscarriage. Hearing that, I was so scared that I didn’t know what to do but kept saying in my heart: It’s so hard for me to be pregnant for seven months; I don’t want an operation. Later, in order to confirm the diagnosis, the doctor asked me to take a blood test. After the result was out, the doctor was confused and said with puzzlement, “It’s really strange! Other people with appendicitis usually have fevers. But why do you not?” Afterward, as the doctor couldn’t make sure whether I had appendicitis, I was asked to receive treatment for preventing miscarriage. I had little thought that after I was given a bottle of intravenous drips, my pain was gradually relieved. My anxious heart finally calmed down. After I returned home from the hospital, the neighboring sister told me that since I was sent to the hospital, she had prayed for me at home. She said that this time I received God’s care and protection. But I thought: It may be a coincidence because common illnesses can be cured through infusion. I didn’t really believe what she said.
Just then, the sister brought me a book of God’s words. As I saw that she often came to accompany and comfort me, as well as prayed for my illness, I started reading some God’s words in my leisure time. Hardly had I expected that the more I read, the more I was attracted by it. I felt God’s words all spoke to my heart. I saw a passage of them, which says, “From the moment you come crying into this world, you begin to perform your duty. You assume your role in the plan of God and in the ordination of God. You begin the journey of life. Whatever your background and whatever the journey ahead of you, none can escape the orchestration and arrangement that Heaven has in store, and none are in control of their destiny, for only He who rules over all things is capable of such work” (“God Is the Source of Man’s Life”). From God’s words, I came to know man’s fate is in the control of God, and that no one can escape the sovereignty and arrangement of God. When I thought of myself and many people around me, I found that many things in everyone’s life, including birth background, marriage and family, can never be controlled by ourselves. Thinking of these facts that God rules over mankind’s fate, I couldn’t help being convinced by God’s words. From then on I grew interested in the matter of believing in God. Whenever I was free, I would secretly readat home alone. If there was anything I didn’t understand, I would go to ask the sister. Through communications, I gradually understood some truths, knowing how people should live out normal humanity, how to fairly treat others, how to be an honest person, how to practice fearing God and shunning evil, etc. I wondered in my heart: Obviously people who believe in God are walking the right way. Why does the government arrest them?
Another month later, my illness recurred. Like last time, I was still in severe pain. At midnight, I was hurried to the hospital, and the next day, my pain was brought under control. A few days later, when I was about to give birth, my amniotic fluid suddenly broke in advance, so I had to choose the cesarean. At that time, as my situation was not good, I got upset in my heart, afraid of my baby’s safety. In addition, the anesthetic had no effect on me. During the operation, I could hardly bear the pain and even felt desperate somewhat. Just then, I remembered the sister had told me that if I sincerely called on God in difficulties, God would listen. So, I silently prayed to God in my heart, “O Almighty God! I really couldn’t bear the pain at this moment, please save me.” After I prayed, my pain was much relieved, so I felt a bit secure in my heart. Then, the doctor told me that I indeed had got appendicitis, and suggested I have an operation for it now, for fear that I would still have to do it once the appendicitis recurred again. I nodded my consent. In the whole process of operation, I felt God was protecting me by my side. Moreover, these two operations were performed very successfully and my baby was also born very healthy. Beyond expectation, I was full of gratitude to God.
After that, the obstetrician told me, “Do you know how lucky you are? It’s really that Heaven is helping you! You got acute phlegmonous appendicitis, that is, the suppurative appendicitis. It’s the most serious kind of appendicitis. If you have the appendicitis attack, it will cause appendicular perforation within three hours, bringing about peritonitis to endanger one’s life. Luckily we gave you an operation for your appendix during the cesarean. If it hadn’t been done, the consequence would be unimaginable!” The doctor paused for a moment, and then frowned and said in puzzlement, “It’s beyond understanding. This is a major illness and according to your condition, it should have been serious. You suffered the appendicitis attack twice, but you were still all right without having any operations. It’s really strange.” Hearing the doctor’s words, I felt so touched and was moved to tears: Isn’t this God’s great protection for me? I remembered God’s words: “The heart and spirit of man are held in the hand of God, and all the life of man is beheld in the eyes of God. Regardless of whether or not you believe this, any and all things, living or dead, will shift, change, renew, and disappear according to God’s thoughts. This is how God rules over all things” (“God Is the Source of Man’s Life”). The fact is really the case. During my pregnancy, I suffered from such serious illness but I was still all right even if I had the attack of illness twice. This made me see God’s wonderful deeds: My illness is in God’s hand, and it changes or disappears based on God’s thoughts. As my heart slightly turned to God and called on Him, God protected me. Only God has such power and authority.
Seeing Through Rumors and Lies to Confirm God’s Work and Gain Blessings
Through this illness during my pregnancy, I saw God’s love andfor me, a foolish and ignorant person. In retrospect, God sent people to preach to me several times. Even though I obviously heard God’s words conform to the truth, yet I just blindly believed the negative propaganda the national government made to distort the facts and frame Almighty God and The Church of Almighty God. Also, out of timidity and fear of being arrested, I rejected God’s gospel, resisted and guarded against God time and again. However, God didn’t give up saving me due to my foolishness but made me truly see God’s deeds through illness, and made me feel God’s love that never leaves and forsakes me. I saw Almighty God is the powerful true God, and is the true God who cares for and protects mankind. I was no longer restrained from those negative propaganda and calmly accepted Almighty God’s work of the last days.
One day, during my spiritual devotion, I saw God’s words, which say, “For thousands of years this has been the land of filth, it is unbearably dirty, misery abounds, ghosts roam its every corner, tricking and deceiving, making groundless accusations, being ruthless and vicious, trampling this ghost town and leaving it littered with dead bodies; the stench of decay covers the land and pervades the air, and it is heavily guarded. Who can see the world beyond the skies? The devil tightly trusses all of man’s body, it puts out both his eyes, and seals his lips firmly shut. The king of devils has rampaged for several thousand years, right up until today, when it still keeps a close watch on the ghost town, as if it were an impenetrable palace of demons; this pack of watchdogs, meanwhile, stare with glaring eyes, deeply fearful that God will catch them unawares and wipe them all out, leaving them without a place of peace and happiness. How could the people of a ghost town such as this have ever seen God? Have they ever enjoyed the dearness and loveliness of God? What appreciation have they of the matters of the human world? Who of them can understand God’s eager will? Small wonder, then, that God incarnate remains completely hidden: In a dark society such as this, where the demons are merciless and inhumane, how could the king of devils, who kills people in the blink of an eye, tolerate the existence of a God who is lovely, kind, and also holy? How could it applaud and cheer the arrival of God? These lackeys! They repay kindness with hate, they have long since disdained God, they abuse God, they are savage in the extreme, they have not the slightest regard for God, they plunder and pillage, they have lost all conscience, and have not a trace of kindness, and they tempt the innocent into senselessness. Forefathers of the ancient? Beloved leaders? They all oppose God! Their meddling has left all beneath heaven in a state of darkness and chaos! Religious freedom? The legitimate rights and interests of citizens? They are all tricks for covering up sin!” (“Work and Entry (8)”). Through reading God’s words, I came to realize: People believe in God and walk the right way, yet the CCP government still arrests them. The true reason is because the CCP is an atheist satanic regime that is always opposed and hostile to God. It tries every possible means to stop people from believing in God and walking the right way, through which it fights over people with God, attempting to reach its purpose of afflicting and devouring people. God created this mankind and provides for them, so it’s right and proper for mankind to believe in God and worship God. However, Satan doesn’t allow mankind to worship true God but wants to struggle with God for status and make mankind worship it as God. It not only denies God’s existence with fallacies such as atheism, materialism, evolutionism, and so on, but also wantonly makes rumors, opposes and condemns God’s work through TV and radio broadcast, and arrests and persecutes Christians. It wants to make people all believe its rumors and lies and fear its evil power so that they dare not accept God’s work, but continue receiving its dominion, serve it, and eventually are all devoured by it. Only from God’s words did I clearly see the CCP government’s evil nature of hating the truth and being hostile to God, and that it is a devilish satanic group which is in opposition to heaven and extremely reactionary.
Later on, from experiences and testimonies of brothers and sisters, I saw: No matter how rampant Satan is, it can never stop the spreading of the gospel. God just uses its persecution to make perfect a group of overcomers, which is the resounding testimony of God utterly defeating and overcoming Satan. From the facts that have been accomplished by God’s work, I truly saw God’s wisdom and almightiness, no longer fearing Satan’s dark influence. I thought back to my once misunderstanding toward God, it was because I didn’t understand the truth or have the ability to discern good and evil that I listened to the CCP’s negative rumors, and resisted and guarded against God’s kingdom gospel. I thought that it was a shame to be arrested, so I was afraid of being arrested by the CCP government. For this reason, I rejectedagain and again. Today I have understood: It is a positive thing to believe in true God and walk the right way. Even if I’m arrested, it’s not a shame. If I want to believe in God, attain salvation, and gain life, I have to pay price. Just as the said, “For whoever will save his life shall lose it: and whoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it” (Matthew 16:25). I was very remorseful for my past ignorance and absurdity and was regretful for missing the opportunity of receiving the watering and shepherding of God’s words for several years. If God hadn’t made me see His deeds and His love and protection for me in my personal experience, I would still firmly believe the rumors and lies of the CCP government, almost falling into Satan’s scheme and losing the opportunity of receiving salvation.
Later, my mother-in-law who used to burn incense and worship Buddha saw God’s wonderful deeds on me. She forsook worshiping Buddha and received God’s work of the last days, turning to worship the true God. Thank God! It can be seen that the great disaster is about to come and that God’s judgment work of the last days will come to an end. But when God’s work is about to end, He chose me and let me catch this incredibly rare opportunity. I’m so blessed. All the glory be to God!
By Yixin, China